Delight in simple things!

When I begin to realize, it's too late...

2011-09-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

Apparently Google has bought over blogger. And so the new interface of blogger is falling in line with Google+ and GoogleMail and all other Google apps… It feels floaty to me. Clean and sleek, but like no base.

Life's been a little bit different for the past few weeks, and as I adjust into my working world, taking on yet another perspective and outlook towards work, I'm feeling pain all over again.

Each day is really unique, and I just have to accept the fast pace of life, knowing that things will never be the same the next day, no matter how I want it to remain. Friendship, treatment to one another, love, character…

It's just the matter of fact in life.

And as the days grow closer to another farewell of a colleague, I realized how much I've actually been so reliant on my dear colleagues, that without them, I don't think I would have survived at work. I must really thank God for giving me such understanding and patient bosses and colleagues, that I can freely express myself…

Too much freedom in fact.

And that was one of the things which weighed terribly on me. I confided in so many friends, in Christ and senior people. And truly I have much to reflect on. It's not easy being a kid, and neither is it easy being a growing kid.

8 months into my full time job. 16 months into this company.

Time flies…

And the person who has walked with me through most of my steps in this company, is leaving for another branch…I'm happy for him :) In a way it is a promotion.

But as time draws nearer for him to leave, I realized how much I've walked this company journey with him being my angel, always keeping a lookout for me, and understanding the pains that I am going through. Even better than the one in my previous post.

Guess it takes one incident to wake a person up to see things clearer from another point of view.

In all areas that I've struggled, I only look towards someone else for comfort. But in actual fact he's there through most of the things.

Sadly, I woke up too late from this little dream I used to have. And now that I want to make things right and better, it's time for him to leave…

He's the first person that I met when I stepped into the office for my interview. He's the one whom I had dinner with so many times when we OT. He's the one who kept me company when I needed to OT while being left behind by the boss to do stuff which I didn't have to…He's the one who taught me technical matters when I couldn't solve. He's the one who stayed out with me, comforting me of the unfairness of life and work. He's the one who taught me so many facts of life. He's the one who would send me home when it's late. He's the one who would advise me on how I should grow up in this working world. He's the one who teaches me how to appreciate good food. He's the one who showed me why we are survivors.

So many times I take him for granted. So many times I overlook him. So many times he is overshadowed by the goodness of the other person when he actually is better looking on hindsight.

The past 2 weeks have been really happy and fun, keeping company almost everyday at lunch and dinner. But I've realized how painful it is to know that we won't be able to have lunch nor dinner nor supper together anymore from next week onwards…

He said he may be back in Singapore soon. Or maybe he won't even go. Or maybe he would just go back to China for a while and return again…Or maybe just bring me over to China.

Maybe…

Maybe I think too much…

Good men are hard to find and I'm just not fortunate enough to own them...

2011-07-03T16:38:00.005+08:00

I decided to log back into my little blog which probably no one ever reads again.

I need to tell someone and I've told a few people already. But its just not right. And I don't know what is taking me so long to snap out of it. When it comes to breakups, I seriously think I don't know how to console others. Much as I tell others don't think so much about it; put a coin into the piggybank when you think about him and then when you are fully over him, take the money out to buy something to reward yourself; or a better man will come your way; God has his plans for you and the guy is just not the one for you; You have too many differences and you need to think about the future.

Well, the more I think about it, when I'm not even going through a real breakup, I realize its all just words. And the amount of energy and courage to really pull out of it is MUCH MUCH greater than this! I don't think how anyone could just get over a breakup and think that nothing is wrong, and life moves on. Especially when the hurtful one is the girl.

Yes, I'm making a molehill out of things and I'm not even going through a rejected stage or a breakup. But just because someone whom I've admired and put my plans onto and grown thoughts over the period of time has gotten attached, I start thinking even more.

Just days before I was happy to hear how people were getting attached, getting engaged, getting married, getting pregnant, having kids, moving on in life…

But yet on Tues, when I found out how this particular person is attached, my whole life just seemed to have moved into another state. And the conversation was just weird. When he told me, I just was lying through my teeth when I said "Congrats" and how that "No wonder you seemed to be happier." and "Life is going to be beautiful" and the ":)" now and then that I give as he told me.

And then he went on to ask me what my future plans are, whether I have anyone in mind…Well, obviously I couldn't say it was him…

Of course the conversation could not have left out how he came to such a decision, how God pulled them together, how lovely they have been…

Seriously, I didn't need to be in such a situation!! And he told me to keep it a secret coz he trusted me?? Yea, thanks a lot.

I know I shouldn't have thought about it even coz it really won't work out. And all these while, I have mixed both personal and work together, that this was the only way which kept me moving. I tried to move forward with him, but guess coz where we are that made things harder to move on.

I haven't spoken it out loud to anyone and I thought just by telling myself I am fine and I would snap out of it soon, afterall, this is not the first time I'm in such a situation. But there's a big difference I guess…

I have felt a big change to myself and how I've been interacting with him for the past few days. I know my r/s with him shouldn't be built upon such feelings, but guess I've made a wrong move and things have sunken too deeply on my end. Mixing emotions and work is a very very bad decision. I've decided to pull myself away from him and only speaking to him for work. And I've stopped working as hard, and there's really no motivation for me now. But I'm suppose to be professional!

Argh! How do others do it!! Where they have like MULTIPLE boyfriends all these while and breakup all so often? I can't. And I can't even say let go!

I've been skipping meals coz there's really no appetite for me. And I've been really moody. I know that he's sooner or later going to get a girlfriend and get married, and I won't be in the picture. But I just didn't realize it would be so soon and that I would be feeling like that!

She's lucky and that's a fact.

And now that I'm in such a state, I only see couples and kids all over! I totally look at people in a different light.

He and I have too many nice and beautiful memories. Maybe that's the thing which was given to me by him? Singing duets, taking lovely pictures, helping and encouraging one another, taking care and showing concerns when we're sick and down…

I'm just not the girl who showed him the most care and concern here then...

I couldn't take it and on Friday night, I went to run at the park nearby and sat down for a long while, thinking about things. I haven't cried at all since the talk on Tues, and I know I would be better after I did. So I really cried while talking to God in prayer and my eyes were washed and the road looked clearer and brighter. I tried to be happier and been pretending that nothing has changed. But somehow deep down inside, the heartache is still etched...

I didn't think this would be part of growing up. Well, I know that I want to get married and have kids. That's me growing up. But I didn't think of the other pain that comes along to finding this happiness.

The next thing which worries me is the day that he finally announces his "attachment" with her on Facebook, or the next moment that the whole office finds out that he's attached and that the whole atmosphere will change, or the next moment that he proposes and the whole world knows he is getting married…

I don't think I would want to be at his wedding and neither do I want to meet her. I don't want to have anything personal to do with him…

Seriously, I even considered leaving my job. How does one get over a person when you see him each day?? And I don't want to be on Facebook anymore coz who knows the next moment when you see an update about him having fun with her?

I'm suppose to be chill and heckcare and think that my prince charming will come along the way…Wait…Be patient…and Pray…YES…I KNOW…

Quoting Huifang as she wrote this on her wall:

If there's something we all need to learn, it is to be happy for someone else no matter the circumstances, even if it may have been at your expense. It would mean a lot to the someone else to have your blessing, even if deep down you know that the pain would never go away.

That is very true, and I know I should be giving my blessings since I know I can never be together with him. And I have set my conclusions on this matter and decided to move on…Well, easier said that done…

Some sayings go like: As long as he is not married for a day, you still have a day chance to win him back.

Just depends if that's what I want to do. I'm just going to behave as usual and still enjoy the gentlemanliness of him that attracted me to him…gain more knowledge of being a manager and a boss…

And of course, Pray that I meet another guy as awesome as him, but is a trusting and believing Christian in the same faith, and that he loves me and only me :)

Till then, I think I'm going to take a long while before I snap out of it. And I've been sleeping more to sleep my worries away. But this just won't work. I have made my plans for the next few weeks to be SUPER BUSY! And not be in office as much as possible. I want to be away from him as much as possible.

Let's try and see how. Coz I really want to be happy again...

2010-09-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

I am so not diligent when it comes to blogging. Really don't understand how LC can do it and even record all that went about on her Hong Kong trip! Till today, I haven't had time to do that!

I'm going to try to put in little nuggets of what has been happening so far. And this is truly not representative of time.

I've grown a lot over the months. Not just in size, but in confidence and maturity.

Working with people older than me, but yet, not that old, has allowed me to see and understand more than what I thought is happening around me. I'm enjoying myself on the internship and 'eyelid' has been great to me thus far :) I always tell Michyyeoh, who is on NOC India now, that she should think of the goodness and look forward to learning something each day at work, which will bring her through the toughness of duties.

Well, this week, its probably going to be the most trying moments at work and I'm going to prove that I'm worth it! May the power be with me and that everything goes on smoothly :)

2010-06-08T00:39:00.005+08:00

I am Free
(Author By Linda Jo Jackson, Ottawa, Canada)

Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free.

I'm following the path God has laid you see.

I took His hand when I heard Him call.

I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day,

To laugh, to love, to work or play.

Tasks left undone must stay that way.

I found that peace at the close of the day.

If my parting has left a void,

Then fill it with remembered joys.

A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss,

Oh yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow.

I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.

My life's been full, I savored much,

Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief.

Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.

Lift up your hearts and peace to thee.

God wanted me now; He set me free!

This poem was read at Sis Linda Sim's memorial service by Bro Eddy. And I found it all so meaningful and true. And when he said "I" each time, I just hear Sis Linda's voice telling me all that.
It's been an emotional night.
Tears didn't whelm me as I stepped into the church building, thinking I would when I saw the coffin lying in the auditorium. Yesterday (Sun) too when they brought her in and set up, I was all fine. It was always at the moment when I took my step nearer towards her to see her and pay my respects to her, that my tears started to well up.
A pretty, chubby and lively sister, now lying motionless with purple lips from the lack of blood flow and suffocation. It pains me.
And then I think of those times that I spoke with her, face to face, on facebook, through writings, I tear.
Today during the service, I had a clear view of her picture from where I sat. Her smile, as described during the eulogy that she would always almost put on a smile, was still as vibrant and vivid as ever in my mind. Each time they mentioned her during the service, through prayer, and through singing, she kept filling my mind. And hearing the sniffs of the others around me, and seeing man such as Bro Paul and Chee Young cry, I couldn't help by go along. I couldn't sing any hymns today coz I got too emotional. And knowing that these people have more memories with her than I do, made me feel the loss even greater. We walked up to pay our respects to her, and to have a look, and then to comfort the family members who were at the side. But I wasn't strong enough and instead no words came out from me, but a handshake to them and a hug to Sis. Angeling (Sis. Linda's sis) whom I love dearly too.
But as through this, I began to understand better, the pain and sacrifice that Christ went through for our sake. He went through a more painful death on the cross but gave us the hope of salvation through the resurrection of His death.
And Sis Linda Sim is now in heaven, with the promise of eternal life and a mansion prepared for her. But nonetheless, she continues to be an encouragement to all that are surviving because of her love and her care that she has shown and given whilst on earth. And I hope that through her death, she is able to bring more people towards the kingdom by the services and the love that the brethren show towards she and the family during this time of bereavement.
I'm sure that she wants everyone to believe that there's a mansion prepared and treasures layed up in heaven. And that's what I want everyone to believe too.
Our life on earth is just but a passing. It's what we do and accumulate up in heaven that matters. And whilst I sat there thinking, what is it if I was suddenly called up to heaven? What would I be leaving behind?
Friends and family members, I want you to be with me in heaven. And I want to meet all of you again. Would it be possible?
Love,Rachel

2010-06-05T14:42:00.004+08:00

And I thought I'd be stronger than this.

Since Wed we have been receiving news about Sister Linda Sim's condition and that she has been warded into hospital. And it just got worse. She went unconscious and then into a coma. Her organs began to fail.

This morning, we received news that she was confirmed brain dead and they removed the machines that have been keeping her alive so far. Soon after, she passed away.

She suffered from a very rare disease called pulmonary hypertension. More can be read here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pulmonary_hypertension.

She is only 34 and has a little boy, Ravel, who is only 2 years+. She leaves behind a lovely family and many brethren in Christ.

Sis Linda Sim has always been a very encouraging sister-in-Christ. Whenever she could, she would pop by in church or on facebook and ask how was I and what am I doing now. She would share her experiences and advise. She brought me up in church, teaching me God's word, always being an encouraging sister. She has been a great example and I will always love her. I'm very happy for her that she is able to be with the Lord now and ended her suffering on earth. We will meet again, Sister!

Dearest sister, you will always be missed. your fighting strength, courage and love for the Lord will always be an encouragement to me. Thank you for bringing me up and teaching me to walk the right paths of life. And for all the advice and stories that you've shared with me. I'll always remember you!

2010-05-20T18:26:00.004+08:00

Isn't it great to have a post once every month :)

Well, not so...

Actually, at any time of the day, I do have things that I want to record down here. Just that at that moment I do not have access. But when I do, I just don't have that feeling or want to record it down anymore.

My head just plays thoughts and another voice appears with what I want to say. Just that there is no transcript of it in the end...

Weirdly, I say.

On the whole, I am doing great :) Now on my internship at T.e.c.h. S.a.i.l.(o).r. :) Enjoying it lots and everyone here is really nice! Big boss from China spoke to me today and I realise how much initiative I haven't been taking. Ok will do from tmr onwards! It's coming to the end of Week 1 and I haven't cleared much of what is on the list :X This is bad...so tmr I have to clear them all.

Tonight is Sports night. But I don't play Squash. So "not" going. But we're celebrating a colleagues birthday and so we're ALL going for Sports night :) I hope to capture some pictures :)

And Ah Kong's birthday was on Mon, but we celebrated with Popiah party (as always) on Sun :) Here's a little special photo that he requested to take with me. And me ONLY :)) haahahahah! So much for 重男轻女 :) He loves this little princess :)

2010-04-23T12:39:00.002+08:00

If only there is something to record my life at every single second.

Then I won't fear of losing all the good memories that I have.

To my dearest friends, I miss all of you!

All the best to those who are going to have their exams :)

I'm going to be done with my paper on Mon :) Yes, only one paper this sem :)

Flying off to Hong Kong (Tues to Sun) :)

Ciao :)

2010-03-29T19:05:00.003+08:00

Just wanted to say that I'm well :)

Even though I've kinda neglected this page in a long time.

Things have been really busy as I end my semester soon in 3 weeks time.

So much for no exams.

But there are a lot of presentations and reports due soon.

I seek your prayers for me and that I may be a survivor of this semester :)

Meanwhile, I've had lots of fun with so many people these past few months such as my birthday, VV10, Hall Production...

And I've grown in the grace of the Lord with the help and encouragement of those in the faith.

To the friends that I haven't had a chance to meet up with you or to even say Hello on facebook, msn, email, sms etc...I remember and miss you all! May we all have more time to meet up with each other soon!

And if all things goes well, I should be on my internship with iLEAD soon :) Hopefully, if they manage to match me with a company. This will be my life for the next 7 months.

Lord, keep me safe in Your arms.

Lots of Love,

Pinkdelights.

2010-01-16T14:13:00.003+08:00

My subnick said:

I must not screw this sem.

And this kind friend popped up with this. Amusingly! He's a friend and senior whom I respect and appreciate him for the encouragement.

Gerald says: (2:07:01 PM)

u won't and u must not think u will

Rachel says: (2:07:14 PM)

thanks gerald!!

Gerald says: (2:08:19 PM)

:) 2010 is a year of new opportunities and challenges

Gerald says: (2:08:26 PM)

think positive ya :D

Rachel says: (2:08:43 PM)

challenging indeed!!

Rachel says: (2:08:49 PM)

my 1st week of school was hectic!

Gerald says: (2:10:18 PM)

haha

Gerald says: (2:10:30 PM)

instead of viewing it as hectic

Gerald says: (2:10:55 PM)

why not come from a different perspective & think of it as keeping your life occupied with opportunities to display your true potential :)

Gerald says: (2:10:58 PM)

haha

Gerald says: (2:11:01 PM)

it's always easier to say

Gerald says: (2:11:22 PM)

but then, if u think positive, life's gonna be a lot more brighter

Rachel says: (2:12:26 PM)

hahahah of course :D it's testing limits.

Rachel says: (2:13:12 PM)

but yea..hectic in a way but it was fun and i did learn

Gerald says: (2:14:09 PM)

coolios

Gerald says: (2:14:13 PM)

know that u r not in this alone

Gerald says: (2:14:24 PM)

there are many others together with you on this journey

Gerald says: (2:14:25 PM)

okie

Gerald says: (2:14:27 PM)

hold on a sec

Gerald says: (2:14:35 PM)

why do i sound so philosophical?

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Thank you my friends out there!! Especially to Ziwei, Zhen, Lix, Erz, Ame, Ben, Michyyeoh, Lawrence, Andy, Willy, Sara, Huifang for being there for me these few weeks while I'm down and out...and keeping me back on track. I need to pull through and I will. It's going to be an exciting semester!

2009-12-23T00:27:00.004+08:00

my heart is in pain. and i'm probably going to cry myself to bed tonight. I just can't take the stress and pressure anymore.

i let my thoughts out and i knew i was never going to get it easy. telling the best friend of the decision is the worst step to take and no...ziwei, it isn't what you said. I don't want to lose the best friends in hall coz I think they are the most wonderful people after staying 3 years with them. but I'm just regretting the decision of taking up the hall's 30th anniversary comm. Hate me, scream at me, scold me, call me irresponsible...

I've told Lixuan about it... and yes of course expected her answers. I've been thinking of all the possible solutions about it and I just cannot let choir go. And this is something which I hold dear to for the past 11 years of my life. I just cant find the same motivation as I can for choir.

I regret it. I haven't done a single thing for the events and this is going to be letting the comm down alr. I know I will never be able to live up to expectations and wont be able to get the things needed. I know i need to start somewhere, I know I have to do it. I know I will get it done someday. But it'll be too late. And I definitely do not know who to ask for help. I am ashamed of telling the chair because he has too many things to handle. But i really do not want to do it anymore. I've really no motivation. and even if i do it, it will be because I am just the shell doing what it has to do and with no heart. I hate it. I will just die doing it. Selfishness. Thats the new me. But I think with this selfishness, Im more carefree, to leave others to die. I'm not like that...why why why..i really don't want to...but isn't it time to really just study!!

Today's release of results is another consequence of doing too many things at the same time. Stupidity.

I'm really sad and I don't know what to do...Escaping and quitting is the easiest way out. I really have no idea. tell me!!

The decision has long been made. My love for choir is there and to sacrifice and do things for it is easy. But to do for hall, it's never been the case. I can just not go to the meeting coz of choir and of caroling. And I don't feel the urgency to know what is going to happen or what was discussed. And when I finally go to the meeting someday, I dont know what is going on. I feel left out. And really dread going for the meetings. I admit I spend more time with the choir people. but that's coz its really great company. I feel in the hall comm its more of lets just get it done and go! And theres more and more arrows coming my way. I shall just accept it. More work to do.

I have let the comm down and thats it. I dont know how to pick up from here.

I'm such a failure...

2009-12-22T02:15:00.002+08:00

I'm struggling.

With too many things on my plate.

I want to let something go and that's troubling me...for those who have been concerned! Thank you!

I've talked to Ziwei about it and she said if they are my friends they would let me...But I'm just feeling so bad. I really have no choice. If I were to choose, of course something that makes me happy and something that I would think benefits the ones I love. I don't know how to bring this across to the people. I'm going to be hated and there goes my friendship with so many. I'm going to seem irresponsible and all...but these few days at home allowed me to realise my life isn't just about that. I have so many more things I want to do. And it just doesn't give me the time to take on something I have to love coz I'm in it. I must admit, it was a rash decision. And I thought I could drop something and take on that. But I can't. My love for choir is always there and it won't change.

And since I'm in charge of caroling, I have been staring at the rosters day in and out. I'm stressed at it coz I want things to go well and perfectly well!! But its just impossible. And worried that some places just don't have that good singers and would feel scary. We should be making music and not damage control! And when I tell ( ), he says "trust in God. He will provide." Of course...but God did say "He who helps himself!" If we don't do something, there's nothing God will do...

And another says "what is the concern here?" duh...can't you see the problem???

Anyway, its getting on my nerves and I thought I'd take it easy this year. Say it once again - NO MORE NEXT YEAR! But everytime i say it, I do it again...

Results out tmr. I will make a decision tmr... And if that is going to hurt the rest of the people in hall..I'm sorry. Going to be selfish once again. And if that means to leave hall, I'm prepared. I have nothing more to hold on. Sorry...

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My life has changed a bit and some decisions are being changed of the recent events lately...Dinners with some people just can make me reflect on my life. I mean, I know I am such, but I don't want to carry on like this...

And with someone suddenly treating me so nice ever, is causing me to lose my logical sense in me. I found the courage to love once again. And I hope it doesn't back fire...as always...It seems but yet it doesn't. And no, nothing is confirmed. It's only my feelings that is causing me to falter...

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This post is depressing. And so am I. I don't know what to do...

2009-11-21T10:13:00.002+08:00

Lovely song that Yuko posted on Facebook! Well, the lead guy didn't get the girl in the end...

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Have been studying for the upcoming exams with many people!

Mon: Alone at home

Tues: Out having fun with Change friends :) Wii at Safra Game Haven, Clarke Quay

Wed: With the choir people - Mich, Seng Hong and later on, Chemin, Peimin, Gabriel at PS foodcourt.

Thurs: With Huifang at Boat Quay Macs. Great place :)

Fri: With lovely Michelle and Peimin at Cathay Starbucks and PS foodcourt :)

Sat: I'm off to Spinelli Harbourfront later to study with Michelle :)

As what Chooi Sum always says on my facebook: Don't watch the world go by ah!

But I guess I learnt much about the world for the past few days...not that I didn't know. But I know more now...

2009-11-16T00:15:00.005+08:00

I'm back to an emo self again. I guess it's coz of the much hyper week I had, which was totally not the usual week.

Lack of sleep = tired = running wild imaginations

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I kept thinking of many things today, feeling emo over things which I shouldn't be now. And I don't know why I'm worrying about it! Maybe I have figured out somethings that I really want in life. It's just uncertain. Even the things that I was affirmative about just got me all wavering again.

One of it was going Europe with nooschoir.

I was sure and confirmed that I do not want to go. But that a few weeks ago.

Today, I feel like I want to be with them. Am I feeling this way after having so much fun with them over the week that I really do not want to miss out on it again? Or is it coz of someone/people/other reason that I'm thinking that way?

I already told myself that I can't go! And I should just STOP thinking about it!

1. No money (~$2.5k) And my parents are definitely not going to support me with the finances. They already told me that when I wanted to go Hangzhou this July. I paid for almost the full expenses of HZ (~$1.5k).

2. Time is not a factor. If I want, I definitely can juggle just as how I did this summer hols. But there are other factors branching out from here.

- Internship. I really want to do another intern. Esp HR side. Would I be able to find a company so accommodating that i can take leave in between in June?

- Hall. There's lots of planning to do for 30th events!

- Travelling. I dread travelling back to school for practices :( sadly to say...

3. Family. I wanted to keep the europe experience to be with them...

4. Meetings. I would still be in the comm and have to attend all those late night meetings. I don't want. I want to JUST SING!

And would I waver again if people tell me they want me to go? I don't know what is my deciding factor this time. To even think about it means I haven't closed the case in my own mind. I'm still giving myself a chance I guess.

But I really love singing and performing! And competing of course. Travelling with choir this time would probably be my last since I may not be able to travel when I start working...And it's the people who are going...

I'm torn.

And why am I thinking about this now?? Closing date is in Jan coz paper work and all has to be settled. But I definitely can't make a decision by then!

- Where am I going to get the money?

- Can I find a company by then for my intern??

- Would I regret going/not going?

Darn..I hate being in such a situation..someone tell me how :(

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And I'm getting really bitchy while writing my reflection paper for one of the modules. I write as though the person is very bad. I shall be nice and cut down on it. So much for being honest.

Will continue writing the reflection paper tmr. Oh yah..and even so, I have to be politically correct for that paper...

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Gab sent us the music files from Chambers' Concert last week. O Nata Lux by Morten Lauridsen is on my iTunes repeat! Lovely :)

Love this sem's Chamber Singers and I'm missing them now :(

This is the best module I've ever taken and I'm so glad we can be "alumni" for it :)

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I guess I'll be blogging more for the next few days :) Shall be updating the surprise parties soon :) And many other things!

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I should be studying :X

Leaving you with a pic which I'm using for all my profiles :)

Thanks to JoelYeo for his good photog skills :)

2009-11-16T00:14:00.005+08:00

Surprise 4: Joel's actual 22nd birthday surprise!

13 Nov 2009, his place

Setup: 11pm-12am (12 Nov)

Actual: 12-1am

2009-11-14T03:55:00.004+08:00

Surprise 2: Shazana's 21st birthday surprise!

7 Nov 2009, her place

Setup: 8-10pm

Actual: 10-11pm

Shaz was suppose to have her 21st birthday party! However, her mum was injured and the party was cancelled.

Zhen called me up that night while I was at grandparent's place and asked if I was keen to go and surprise Shaz! Of course lah!! Best friend leh :) And it was so exciting!

I met zhen at Geylang East Library after Dad dropped me off there. And we went SHOPPING! I left house with only my phone coz grandparent's place only! So had to borrow money and ez-link from mum! :X

Zhen and I went shopping for candles and decorations! Dianne was to get the flowers. But while shopping, we saw flower seeds! I told Zhen "why don't we just give her the flower seeds! It'll last her a very long time! Coz I don't think she'll grow them :X"

But well, of course we didn't :)

We headed off to Shaz's place. She was suppose to be home after 9+pm when the visiting hours at SGH was over. So we safely thought no one was at home.

Zhen and I started to decorate, play with the blue streamers we bought and took photos. We talked at our normal voice! Then Zhen said she heard noises from inside the house, but quite softly. We ignored.

We went to the staircase landing to place the candles onto the Renaldo's Strudel we bought as the cake. Normal cakes would melt by the time we reached Shaz's place.

I called Shaz as a decoy. Like to just ask how is she, what is she doing, where was she. And she was at home watching National Treasure! That means whatever we were doing outside just now, she may have heard! We were so worried that she would suddenly open the door coz we already put the streamers on it!

Dianne and Kenneth came soon after and blew balloons! Before that, little boys ran up and down the stairs and a family came down. They "shhhh"ed the ang mo guy that was with them as he was saying "oh wow! A surprise!" And yes, Shaz could almost hear!

We were ready! And put balloons at her doorstep.

Coz the wind was blowing so great and the streamers were too hard to take off (actually its just that Shaz has no skill :X), so she blew her candles from behind the door!

Surprised she was :)

Oh yes, her sister and her heard the noise that zhen and I made while decorating and saw the flash from the camera but thought it was lightning and she was lazy to go out to check. So thank goodness you didn't!! If not, the surprise wouldn't have been a surprise anymore :D

And the lovely girl had many pics :)

It's been ages since we last met and I'm so glad we could be there for your 21st :)

Happy Birthday Shaz :)

2009-11-14T03:53:00.004+08:00

Surprise 1: Joel's early 22nd birthday surprise!

5 Nov 2009, CFA

Actual: 10-11pm

Happy Birthday Masketeer!

He's so lucky to have such a lovely girlfriend who masterminded the birthday surprise with michyyeoh! The idea of appearing from behind the whiteboard after the birthday song was just an ingenious idea! Just that the guy was slow and only saw her name on the whiteboard and didn't realise she was there! Surprise! Coz he wasn't expecting her :)

Lovely Heartshaped balloons that didn't blow to look like them :)

Lovely birthday cake baked by the girlfriend!

Lovely people who stayed to celebrate his very early birthday!

2009-11-14T03:50:00.004+08:00

It's the Little Things

The above song lyrics just make my heart melt! Especially the chorus.

It's the little things that we share, the love and joy that's in the air

I'm really thankful for friends, family and all who love me! Just this week alone, from last Thurs, to this Thurs, I was part of 4 very special surprise birthday parties! And I felt natural happiness from it :)

I really want to record it all down and play it when I'm old and show my grandchildren how happy my life is with so many lovely people! And how haps my life was :)

It's 245am now. And I'm suppose to be sleeping. but of course, feelings come at very weird times of the day!! And always when I'm supposed to be doing something else, especially sleeping. I'm waiting for Peimin's birthday videos to be loaded to facebook :) Already loaded 4 and waiting for the last 2 to be up! Somehow, it's faster at this time. Of course, when everyone else is sleeping!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the following surprised people - Joel, Shaz and Peimin :) You all are loved and treasured by me :) And the rest of course!

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Edit: Posts are all uploaded separately :)

2009-11-09T01:43:00.003+08:00

I'm suppose to be doing my script for tmr's (rather, later at 3pm) OB presentation. Done with the ppt :) SO HAPPY! I love doing ppts and that it looks presentable enough :) Don't like doing content though. Anyway, it's with Chantal now so, staying awake to keep her company as she does the last edits.

Anyway, I'm sure there's time to fork out to write this little note :)

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Thank you Willy for the very loving and heartwarming lesson this morning during bible class :)

He taught from Ps 142. And about how David didn't have a friend when he was in the time of need. We should be a friend to someone and show them love and care. Even when they are not seen often around us.

When he said, you should have everyone's email add, hp, facebook etc. Any little way that can connect with the rest of the class is good. And yet, I realised I don't even have Debra's (who sits beside me every week) contact details! :(

He said he wanted everyone in class to do something different during service:

- Sit with someone you never, or haven't sat with for a long time

- Talk to someone you haven't spoken to in a long while

- SMS someone to ask how is he/she

- Send your love

And I think it's just God-send. God has it all planned out for us!

I was telling Dad at dinner about what Willy taught and what he told us to do. Dad was appalled and I guess God is just all around us! :)

- I sat with someone I really did not know previously and never spoke to her before. She is Pauline, Ruiqi's cousin. Even though I couldn't teach her much, but I made friends with her :) I hope she comes back again! :)

- I was to meet OB group mates - Hf, Sara, Kevin, Chantal and Wenjie at Raffles Place MRT. And I casually asked Ben (benjamin) after class if he was going back to SMU for project. And he was! So dad and mum gave us a lift to the MRT after service (without lunch :X). And we took the train. Having company for the train ride was so much better! No hunger too! :) Really caught up much with him! He's going France SEP for 7 months next year :( Gonna miss you Ben!

- Just as Willy said, In a world of technology, all of us have the most basic form of communication - the Cell phone. Immediately, I got an SMS from my dearest friend Lawrence who was in the same classroom as i was just probably a metre away..."how are you????" but that's nice enough :)

- Sent my love to:

Willy - Thanking him for the lesson today!

Dinah - For missing her.

Thank God for friends and showering His many blessings on me! :)

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When I got off the train at Raffles Place, I was really hungry :X and so I took a walk around Raffles Place MRT to find the nearest Macs. But I detoured a bit knowing I won't get there yet. Oh i reached there at 1pm when my meeting was at 2pm. So lots of time to walk around. I walked to One Raffles Quay and One Marina Boulevard - Mostly offices so it was deserted! Just for some cleaners and security guards.

After much walking, I gave up. Went to grab Mr Bean. That was the only thing opened! Besides 7-11. And casually asked the cashier where the nearest Macs was. She directed me and TADA! I was at the Clarke Quay Riverside Macs!

I went up and sat down. It was nice and cozy :) Really a great place to study! just that I can't use my laptop coz there's no powerplug :(

Soon my group mates came and we migrated away from the window I was looking out earlier.

Ben and I were constantly msg-ing each other, chatting about our group mates and how I couldn't find the macs etc. He was doing his project rehearsal too! But the group was just not agreeing. And I thought my OB group was worse. Oh well, for once, I didn't quarrel with Kevin today! So not too bad...But when they said we got to write the conclusion together, I almost fainted :x more wasting time!

I jokingly replied Ben - Save me!

And this was our conversation:

Ben: I come fetch you la haha.

Me: Huh! You at proj meeting also leh! No need lah!!

Ben: No la I can leave school then come find u. Nt very far. Half hour? Haha want or not?

Me: Hahahha!! If you want :) I don't mind!

Ben: K set coming now haha

Me: No no!! no need lah!! really!!

Ben: Haha I serious lei anyway i leaving school already so if u want its no problem

Me: And then do what??

Ben: Take u out of e meeting la haha. Then go home lor

Me: Aiyo no need no need! you go home lah!

Ben: Lol okay if you say so haha its at your loss!

And of coz I didn't want him to come!! inconvenience him only... but i just thought the conversation was so funny!! wonder if I said ok, would he really come? :))

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Thank God for everything so far! Life has been good and I'm loving it! macs :)

One more presentation and Chambers' concert on wed and I'm done :) RELAX :)

2009-10-19T09:35:00.006+08:00

The NUSChoir is honoured to lend a hand to raise funds for the victims of the calamities.

Please call to donate to help them!

News Article about Project Hope: http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1011646/1/.html

The show will be televised tonight, 19 Oct 2009, 830pm, Channel 5 and Suria, and on TV Mobile and big screens at Ion!

(i'll be on TV!!) :)

2009-10-07T21:55:00.004+08:00

I realise I usually blog when I'm unhappy and stressed.

I'm both today.

Things didn't go very well today. Some are minor and I thought I was over it. But I guess it's amounting stress.

In the morning, I forgot that managing change meeting was at 12pm and happily thought it was 1pm. When Kian msged at 1145am that he would be 15 mins late, I was wondering why msg that when it's an hour away. When Huifang msged at 1205pm that they were at the benches already, I was wondering why she was so early! But well, the meeting was at 12pm and I forgot about it. I changed and grabbed my stuff and zooom! I was there at 1215pm!

Well, that seemed like a just a small mistake. But it was the start of bad things to come...

Meeting for managing change was good. And we had lunch together :) really love "intellectual" lunches and talking crap :) If only everyday could be like that...relax the afternoon away and chill...

OB meeting was at 230pm...with us strolling around computing trying to find a seat to discuss. why? Coz some people wanted aircon and didn't want to sit at the biz canteen, saying it would be easy to find seats there. But no...and we ended up spending 10 mins trying but yet ended up at the biz canteen. Best thing..there's this guy in the group who we elected as our project director aka team leader. when we finally settled down at biz canteen at 250pm (when meeting suppose to be 230pm at computing..), we called him and he said "eh, i thought you all finding place at computing?" wth..you mean WE were suppose and not US?? And he joined us only after we have decided on biz. 5 girls..waited for that 1 guy!

During the meeting, he shot ME and my decisions a few times. Seriously...we have discussed about that earlier on but NO ONE said ANYTHING!! NOTHING against what I proposed. And when I suggested that project team..was it because we were desparate and then we JUMPED into it??? I think we have clearly read what I said in the email. And now, you come up with a few ANALOGIES to tell us that what we have been doing is wrong! The more he gave, the more hurt i felt. It was like I shouldn't have gone into those trouble and suggesting and yet be shot down like that. I can accept criticisms. But i think you should have just phrased it nicely. And I really didn't like the QUIETNESS we had during the meeting. When I stated a point, there was SILENCE. And when I asked, "yes/no?" No one said anything. I asked again to break the silence and he said, "I'm thinking!"Like how long... and only he is thinking!! everyone else wasn't! So that was a waste of time!! There were more pockets of quietness and awkard silences.

Then we said ok...let's take out the points and find some questions that we can ask during the interview. So do it concurrently...but the guy just had to say, why don't we find the points first and THEN do the questions. Ok..so we did that...

And he kept changing minds, throwing in some useless comments...

I was quiet through the whole thing coz if I talked, I would have just blown up and walked off! I was trying soooo hard to keep my cool!

Finally when we were done with the points, and time to start on the question, he said, do you think it's like that? Why don't we split and go back and think of the questions. We are going nowhere. WE WERE GOING SOMEWHERE!! JUST THAT YOU AND YOUR COMMENTS WERE BLOCKING US!! yesyes..BLOCKING!! URGH! YOU WIN!

And so we had the points and we were going to split the work. we said 6 points, 1 person take 1. Ok. great :) just split ;) just one person takes 1 point to work on! good!

silence..

no one wants to say anything.

i said, ok, let's split. who wants what?

silence...

finally the project director speaks up and said he wants _____. but with angst. i could feel it...

and so everyone decides on one point.

and then when to collate, who to collate, when is the next time to meet...

took another freaking 15mins!!! with a lot of silence. Now, there's left me, 2 other girls and the guy. i gave a few suggestions like when we can get this done when etc..and the guy just goes no no no...but said NOTHING ELSE....so what's the best plan?? 15 mins later and still what I said 15 mins earlier became the plan...

I felt it was a total waste of time and a lot of ineffectiveness.

430pm. we were done. the guy said. ok, those that need to leave can leave. no one left and packed slowly. awkward silence. i couldnt leave coz i was waiting for the 2 girls to go off together.

before we left, i said, "I think we need to work on being more efficient. If this goes on, we waste a lot of time."

And I was BLACKFACED!!! I was trying soooo hard not to blow anymore. But if i could, I WOULD!

We left and I didn't talk to the other 2 about the project at all. Usually we would have a lot to say and spend every single second talking to each other. But we just had...SILENCE...

seriously pissed off and hurt...i really wonder how i'm going to work with HIM anymore and face the group. If this is the storming stage, I"M HATING IT!

I didn't want to draw conclusions of him earlier but the more i think about it, the more i am regretting having him in the group. Not that we have a choice. urgh...

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i have hit some nails for choir caroling and engagements...and i'm sadded...over the mistake i made. I'm really sorry...if that helps...

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I really looked forward to bible class and enjoyed it! But I think coz i was angry in the afternoon, that led me to be pissed easily. And so, i lost my patience. Questions were brought up in class which i knew and I felt a waste of time listening to the answers being repeated...

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The bus ride home made me emo... I spent the half an hour journey thinking. Reflecting on myself and my feelings...

I think I'm busy...very busy till i have no time to breathe. to stop and think... and be the person I am. Coz of that, I have lack of time and cannot stand people wasting time and being inefficient, resulting in my short comings.

And no..I'm still not alright with the project meeting and whatever happened.

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Quoting from a guy that I saw on the news just now, who was commenting about the loss of the mosque coz of the fire, "If I could cry, I would cry now.."

2009-09-26T14:06:00.005+08:00

爱到底

4 short love stories :)

Heartwarming, mind boggling, patience, thought, and fun :)

2009-09-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

An inspiration to all of us: Scott James

2009-09-22T01:16:00.007+08:00

21 SEPTEMBER 2009

First day as a GCO was very fun :) And I learnt a lot about customer care!

Thank God for this wonderful opportunity!

My first time with IL DIVO :)

From left: David, Sebastian, Urs and Carlos

Their new album - The Promise :)

My fav: Urs :) He has a wonderful tenor voice!

Know more about them here.

Thank you Michyyeoh and Yuans for the guidance :)

Another concert to add to the list :)

Musicals/Theatre/Concert:

1. Cinderella

2. Here Lies Love

3. CATS

4. Much Ado About Nothing

5. Video Games Live

6. Il Divo

Movies:

1. Terminator

2. Transformers

3. Angels and Demons

4. Murderer

5. Harry Potter

2009-09-13T00:48:00.005+08:00

I'm very proud and happy to see you on stage, for the first time, presenting a message from the word of God :)

Your little story at the beginning made me really glad for she taught me too that I can still be here today. Thanks Jie Elizabeth :)

I've found the love for God and Christ more today! :)

Ushering duty with Bro gave me a chance to talk to Bro for a full half an hour. Standing there, waiting for people to arrive, and to fill in the emptiness, Bro and I had a talk about academics, which was good enough :) I'm glad to have found out more about what he is doing in school and the things in which he was going through. And giving advices as a sis would do. Just so amazing how God gave us this opportunity!

Sis Irene walked by and she said, "so nice to see both of you talking! Not like others who quarrel..." yeah...when's the last time I quarreled with Bro?? Probably 10 years ago when he was still sitting in my barbie doll houses... I don't even quarrel or scold him when he comes back late or make mum angry. I tell him nicely...Is that why our sibling r/s didn't blossom well?

Some others commented saying they felt very good hearing cheerful hellos from us :) And so heartwarming to see bro and sis doing duty together, and wish their kids could be like us :)

Well, I must say I was very happy too :) Coz for the first time, I could have a good HTHT with Bro and to see him smile and greet people :) It's sometimes very difficult to get him to open his golden mouth. :)

Singing was great! Somehow just felt emotional while singing the songs... Like feel for Christ and his plight and how helpless we are...

And it was just amazing! I couldn't help but keep smiling as Lawrence presented his debut sermon. He taught in such systematic way and simplicity. And I found the meaning to Christianity once again. And what I've been always believing. Such blessed words from the bible.

Well done my friend :)

2009-09-10T01:19:00.003+08:00

Goodbye Siao Er!!

Have fun in California with your hot guys :)

We'll miss you back here in sunny Singapore!

Hope you settle down well in US. But please remember to come back home where your dearest friends and family are!

Did you see our little present to you? Hope it kept you company on the plane! <3

See you in 4 months time :)

A count down everyday...

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Thank God for the wonderful blessings of having such great buddies :)

Jia Minh, Ben, Lix, Daniel Lean, Gerald, Wee Wen and myself sent Siao Er off at the airport today. Left hall at 2pm and had a 1.5hours journey with these guys. The trip there was very fun and lighthearted. At the airport, they went crazy and started crapping a lot.. which was a great thing! They liven up the mood and didn't make it so emo... If it was just Ben, Lix and me, we would have flooded Changi Airport T3 already!! But coz of their crappiness, we didn't feel the sense of separation...

4 months isn't that fast and I think in a twinkle of an eye, we'll see her soon again :) There's always technology like Skype and MSN :) Just maybe not for the next few days :(

We went Popeyes after that to "study". Of course, with that bunch of guys, who can study?? Nonetheless, we satisfied our craving for Popeyes :) And studied probably 1 to 2 pages? >.<

1.5 hours travelling back with Ben, Jia Minh and Lix was great! Just got a bit emo about missing Siao Er...

Bon Voyage Erz :)

2009-09-05T03:54:00.002+08:00

There's been many wonderful things that have happened over the weeks! And of course some unhappy...

But I've kinda learnt how to let things go and take its course as how it would. Thanks to everyone who have shown their love and concerns :) I have learnt and am becoming a better person. And from here, picked up some things along the way from other's experience. I don't have to be going through it to learn.

And I hope I've helped these friends of mine so far...when they come to me with their problems, am I giving them the right advices?

Through this 2 months into hall life again, I must say that I've really learnt more and am more exposed to dangers. Well, not literally...but like human relations which causes matters to get very wary. I have learnt that not all people mean what they say. Duh...and why did I just learn that...Have been too lenient and naive over these people.

And I have learnt to stand up for reasons which I think are right. Like finally when i'm stepping down of something, I feel that I've learnt much a lot and feel like doing it again. But no no no, not going on that road again :) I've enjoyed and succeeded and will keep it that way. Time for others to take on that route now :)

A lot of say say don't do attitude have been seen and I really hope I don't fall into that trap. Especially with school work. Trying to keep up with it now. Soooon...let me stabilize my life first.

Put God first is the hard and fast rule. But it's been tough...

I want more time for myself and God...

This is just a reflective post and the next one, I hope, will be about the past events :)

2009-08-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

You know how some people say, don't call, write, talk to anyone when you are in anger?

I guess that's what you are going to read further down.

I must agree that seniors have the mindset and knowledge of how many things go. And they are always right coz they have seen the world more than I have. And there are many things which are so minor that were blown up just because one person sees it as a problem when everyone else doesn't.

The new drive: GROW UP! Think!! You yourself as an adult!!

Don't keep thinking "I won't say. I'll wait and see when they realise it." Please, if you don't say, others won't notice it and it won't be a problem! But just because you think that way, and you spread such little bits here and there to others, it becomes a problem!

I'm not keeping this in secret. Coz for all you know, my blog is one of those that they read. And to whoever else that is still following here, thank you. I've refrained from blogging about so many things coz I know the blog is of course open to many people to read about. And coz other people reads others blogs, and pick out mistakes and opinions out of there which blows up, I must say how technology has hurt human relations to the max.

We are not perfect. And the committee is not perfect. A new comm I must say, totally. Some not even been handling such nonsense or planning before. Little help and guidance. I must admit I really helped the comm a bit too late. I didn't poke my nose too much into their planning. I didn't think my role was to transcend whatever I was designated to do. A tinge of time too late. I prepared the comm for whatever may happen. But guess my memory was just too limited and I was unable to fully prepare. When it happened, I thought if it was alright, it should be fine. But no, people just kept it to memory, and mattered a lot to them, more than it mattered to me, and blew a big fuss over it. Of which, we couldn't prevent. But hey!! If you people could have PREDICTED such things, why are you even here! Go and be the PROPHET! Why didn't you realise that such things would happen and warn us about it? We already said, things that we can improve on, and not what was done wrong and whose fault was it!

The only good thing that was said was that "Oh yes, there were good things, but I can't remember."

See, people only remember the bad things that inputs in them a totally bad memory and making themselves feel better when they put others down. What ever happened to the good memories??

I'm really sorry to the comm who had to endure such trashings. Good experience eh? I had it worse last year. I feel that as elected and chosen people, we have the right to lead. And if you think we have made a seriously big mistake by killing you in the process of it, I'm sorry. But no, you are alive and sitting there, commenting about the whole, long process of it, digressing to super minute details, which could be spared.

Why didn't you think of writing an essay?? I'm sure that would have made the whole thing better. Since i think you would have done a great winning award one.

Nadnad, Bro and Bimbo, I miss you guys. I felt helpless. Like I wanted to stand up for the comm but I just let the big boss do the talking, which I must say he did a great job at protecting the comm. Just a bit too not to the point.

How many times must I tell myself to stop putting myself in such a great big danger of becoming emotional? I'm glad I was strong today to keep my peace and emotions at one corner. No no, maybe it wasn't too bad coz we had to break it off due to time constraints.

I miss the sec sch, jc days where the teachers say, you just do. Don't question. Why did we even give them the chance to speak? Coz they are seniors, they know what's best for us and we need to know how to improve on ourselves.

I'm not convinced.

And now that we are going overseas again next year, gives me more reason to think and think again if I want to put myself through such a droning trip. I'm not going to pay so much money to put myself through such an emotionally tiring trip again.

Case closed.

Let's move on.

2009-07-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

It's been ages!!! Since 7 May! That was the time when exams ended.

Yes, I'm back here to clean the cobwebs..

It's coming to the end of the internship with SCORE, Fri being the last day. And this holidays have been fairly routine with excitement in each area.

God has been fair and kind and loving towards me! But I must know how to learn to appreciate all that I have. Thank God for wonderful PARENTS :) Who have been with me all these while! Even though I see mum lesser than 2 mins a day. 1 min in the morning and 1 min at night. It's been a trying period and I know that they are always there for me!!

I was able to spend more time with Grandparents!! Especially on Sat after choir prac. I love this routine :) Grandparents are doing great!

Work was very meaningful! Giving others a 2nd chance and helping their families open a welcoming door to their loved ones...Even though work seems sometimes difficult and we just lapse into the "why am I doing this when I don't have to" mode, you just think of the many lives that you are saving. I have learnt much and am grateful for this opportunity :) [Building Bridges, Changing Lives]

I have spent quite some time with colleagues too! Making new friends :) Thank God for giving me such wonderful intern friends :) Kai Hong, Sophia, Malcolm, Diana! I've had fun with you guys :)

The preparation for Hangzhou competition for choir is doing great :) We are set to go!! WHEE!! but not me! I haven't started packing! There are so many things to do!! And it's great that we had the comm meeting together yesterday (Sun). Kinda got a better understanding how the comm works and what are the areas to improve on. Looking good :)

It's going to be a long hiatus till I blog again. Maybe not. I'll see how :)

Thank you to all who have been showing your encouragement and support to me through one way or another :) Appreciate it!

Loves,

Rach

2009-05-07T10:20:00.002+08:00

It's the last paper for AY0809!!

My 2nd year of Uni ends at 7pm!

I am so not confident for the paper today. Have no idea what to write in the exams. Have not finished reading the readings. Have the summaries but what help is it I wonder... Why doesn't SU options work for core modules?

It's been a great sem. Yet a screwed exam. I loved MUA3211 - Chambers Singers module : ) I loved MNO2302 - HR Management : ) Coz there was no exams : ) I loved BSP2005 - APAC (the paper today) coz I made new friends and a better friend - Valsie : ) I loved FIN2004 - Finance coz I understood a lot of things! but exam paper was bad... I loved ES2002 - Biz Comm coz I loved the powerpoints I made : ) Yes, there are still some things which I loved about my modules : ) Though I think results always shows otherwise.

And I loved HALL LIFE : ) With best friends all on the same wing : ) Ame, Lix, Erz, Luz, Esther!! 5th Flr shortwing girls rock!! Thanks for being there for me for the past 1 year. I am missing all of you now since I'm at home mugging for exams when all of you are done!!! Even Luz is in Europe already!!

There are sooo many good news to share! : )

The JC SYF was 2 days ago (on tues). Yes, I went even though I had to mug for an exam. Did the studying there! No comments about the choirs! Only congratulations!! Well done to MJCHOIR : ) The seniors are all very proud of you! Gold With Honours : )

Visit HERE for commentaries and results.

And thank you to everyone for their wellwishes : ) My interview on Mon went very well! : ) And I've got my intern. Will be starting on Mon at SCORE. Last day of work will be on 17 July and after that it'll be Hangzhou Competition! So I won't be having a holiday..And after hangzhou school starts. What a 3 month break.

Alright, back to my readings!

Will be watching my 4th musical for the year tonight with Huifang at Fort Canning Park : ) MUCH ADO ABOUT NOTHING! We'll be rushing off right after our paper! I can't wait! And Dianne just msged me to say she'll be there too : )

1. Cinderella

2. Here Lies Love

3. CATS

4. Much Ado About Nothing

: )

2009-05-04T21:42:00.002+08:00

17:52

The longest amount of time I've spoken to you!

On a phone : )

It's been so many years since I've long spoken to you on the phone!

Times are changing.

And I like this change : )

2009-05-01T15:50:00.003+08:00

I'm supposed to feel happy for you.

But yet, I am not.

I am acting as though I am.

Hypocritical.

I shouldn't have spent so much time helping you. You have too many people helping you. Now I feel useless. There are others out there who have more ability to help you.

Oh well, I am just not in the mood to be happy.

Congrats anyway.

2009-04-23T22:16:00.003+08:00

Thank you all for the encouragement since the last post : ) I have been back to visit them for lunch : ) and hopefully for more times in the holidays - which is still an unknown of what I am going to do then.

Applied for internships but no interviews :( Still holding on to a few hopes, one of which bimbo Juat helped me in : )

Exams are starting TMR!! Well, thank God I only have 3 papers!! If not I'll be pulling my hair out!

Biz Comm 24 April 9am

Finance 29 April 1pm

APAC 7 May 5pm

Yes...3 whole weeks...

Alright, back to the books : )

FYI! I watched CATS : ) What a MEMORY : )

2009-03-28T22:42:00.008+08:00

21 years..

...of being together.
...of love.
...of living under one roof.
...of scolding.
...of hardship.
...of celebrations.
...of travelling, going on holidays.
...of discipline.
...of education.

...of plane rides.
...of needing each other.
...of care.

...of shopping.

...of outings.

...of tv shows.

...of dinners.

...of lunches.

...of desserts.

...of suppers.

...of breakfasts.

...of car rides.

...of memories and counting.

AND MANY MORE.

There's so many countless things that I really want to do with the 2 of you. but time is just not on my side. I am selling myself, more like giving myself to hall, choir and studies that I have not seen you both for a month already. Projects are really taking up my time and presentations seem like a norm.

I'm giving up.

Sometimes I just wonder why did I put myself through so many things at the same time. Things just don't work out well in the end. With people letting us drown for a year and telling us right at the end that we are such failures. No..that's not the focus of today.

I want to just take a break from everything that I'm doing now. But things just need me to be so efficient. And prioritize is not something that I love to do. I am beginning to be too tired to even do things to the best. The perfectionist in me does work, but I'm too tired to do so.

I have procrastinated for soooo many things. Including the birthday presents for you. And even compromising the amount of telephone calls I have made to you. Not to mention visit you. School life is just so tough that it's sooooo far for me to visit you both. Yes, I know if I want and bother to, I can. Excuses.

One telephone call. And it got me all teary. EMO-me.

It was so great to hear your voice once again. And it just evokes the tap in me. I controlled. Talked about your health, knowing how tired you have become over so many things going on at home which I didn't even realise it was happening. We talked about the boys which was so light hearted : ) Am so glad they are doing very well! And we finally got on to the topic which I'm really fearing about.

I apologized for not going back for so long to see you both. And you said it's ok. I know you don't think it's ok. I know you want me home. And to stay there when I can. But I can't. You tell me to take care. To study hard. Not to worry about all at home. And I bite my lips, nodding my head as I listen to you talk.

I asked about him. And I know I wasn't going to take it well enough again. And you said, "For all you know, the next time you come, he wouldn't remember you anymore." And you said it so lightly. How heavy my heart was. I know it's becoming worse. But I just can't take it...I so want to fly, get there in the most fastest time that I could. I can't bear to see him forget me just like that...

The telephone call ended with very soft goodbyes from me while you told me how I have to take care of myself and not to worry about you. And how I should enjoy, travel and do what I want to do while I can. And I know you could sense I was already tearing and no words could come out of my mouth.

You both aren't young already I know...and life hasn't been good to you. Striking you with illnesses I don't want you to have; keeping your life at time bomb distances. And even losing your memory.

I need you both.

I really do.

I want to just stop everything and go to you right now. And I think that includes my internship.

I really miss living with you. Miss the late nights together coz of school. You sleeping and waking up just to wake me up coz I fell asleep on the table while studying. You teaching me how about life. And about sooo many other things.

I just want to walk this life with both of you for many more years. Please give me more time...and I really hope you'll both still be around to see me get married. My life won't be complete without you both...And I really need you to be there to see your little princess grow.

I know you'll never see this but I really need to let you know how much I really love you both...

The man who retired 21 years ago to take care of me. : )

The woman who never fails to listen to me rant.

To the 2 who love this lovely princess:

I LOVE YOU!

2009-03-18T10:29:00.004+08:00

What a busy week.

The brain and body are not working well.

There goes the energy.

And there goes all the time to do extra studying.

Committee meetings, project meetings, concerts, performances.

Every single minute is used!

Fulfilling life.

But I'm tired...

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From left: Me, Franz, Monique and Juat

Glutton's Bay

13 March 2009

Juat and I were busy with being an Artist Liaison for Dutch Pianist Monique Copper and her husband Franz from 12 March till 15 March.

More about her here: http://www.moniquecopper.nl/index.html

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Got to get ready for AMPLITUDE concert later.

There goes another day.

2009-03-13T08:24:00.001+08:00

It's a screwed week...

So many presentations, reports, things to do...

2009-02-21T12:15:00.004+08:00

I'm very excited about tonight's NUSChoir concert!

Presenting Varsity Voices 2009: Musica Moderna!

Date: 21 Feb 2009

Time: 730pm

Venue: University Cultural Centre Hall, NUS

Featuring works of renowned composer of modern choral works, Eric Whitacre, as well as other contemporary takes on sacred music, NUS Choir invites you to embark on this journey with us as we unlock a treasure trove of meanings behind these gems. Allow us to show you brilliantly woven tapestries of love, spirituality and nature that were created during this age. So embrace the experience and allow the music to inspire you with fresh perspectives of life.

How and Where to get tickets:

Concert tickets are priced at $15 (excluding $1 SISTIC booking fee). Schools are eligible to purchase tickets under either schemes.

1. Current promotion of early bird sales valid only till 8 Feb 2009. Tickets are at $12 (excluding $1 SISTIC booking fee) Get your tickets now at SISTIC or from any Choir member!

2. School offer - For every purchase of 10 regularly priced tickets, get a complimentary ticket free! This order has to be placed with the Choir and not through SISTIC.

For enquiries, please email us at VarsityVoices2009@gmail.com.

Or visit us at our Blog or facebook event page.

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As of now, we have already sold our target of about 800 tix and have opened up the top level too! : ) It's really exciting to know that we are going to perform to a full house again and we don't have to worry about not being able to sell our tix : )

Really happy for NUSChoir!

Yesterday's rehearsal was good! And I am looking forward to Cloudburst! It's going to be a surprise and I hope it's going to be a good surprise!

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With this concert, Fun Com ends its term here. And I'm feeling a bit teary when I think about it! It's been a great year, though with some ups and downs, but I'm glad I could work with this group of people! Thank you Fun Com! Thank you Nad and Michelle for all guidance, patience and love! : )

Thank you to my dear lovely Marcom - Arti, Norma, Carol, Che Min, Huiling and Thorn Yuheng : ) For putting in so much effort into calling and promoting the concert : )

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To a great VV'09 : )

2009-01-26T00:06:00.004+08:00

新年快樂！

事事順心！

步步高生！

學業進步！

牛年行大運！

As we enter the year of the Ox, I hope this year will be a smooth going one for everyone!

May we all be able to chase our dreams and excel in all our future endeavours!

2009-01-13T19:05:00.006+08:00

我为什么会想这么多。最近真的对自己没有什么信心。

今天的试听真的对我来说是我着一生中最差的一次。。。

真惭愧。。。

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Typing in Chinese does seem different. And I finally found out how to type in Chinese : )

Well, on a happier note, I foresee a wonderful FINANCE sem : ) Today's lecture was good! The lecturer is one cool guy! Before the lecture started, he played some background music and dimmed the song just as he started his lecture. His introduction to the lecture such as when is the mid sem test, what textbook to buy; how interesting Finance is...

Good start to a CAP 5 for him when we do the evaluation! hahaha! And that presentation had a song to it too! And when it was a break, he showed the Puss-in-Boots picture and played the Shrek "Accidentally in Love" song during the break!

The next part of the lecture was a little boring though..Like what's in store for us..and a whole lot of finance stuff. Wonderful thing is that the exam and mid term tests are OPEN BOOK : ) Not a good sign. But at least I don't have to memorise like for the sake of memorising for exam. The exam is going to be a hard one too with this...

But I'm determined to study hard this sem!! : )

Loving this song now : )

Cinderella was beautiful! I don't mind watching it once again, living in a fairytale for the 2 hours, watching as magic takes place in front of my eyes!

Beautiful~~

Ten minutes ago I saw you
I looked up when you came through the door
My head started reeling
You gave me the feeling
The room had no ceiling or floor

Ten minutes ago I met you
And we murmured our "How do you do's?"
I wanted to ring out the bells
And fling out my arms and to sing out the news
I have found her
She's an angel
With the dust of the stars in her eyes
We are dancing, we are flying
And she's taking me back to the skies

In the arms of my love I am flying
Over Mountain, and Meadow and Glenn
And I like it so well that for all I can tell
I may never come down again
I may never come down to earth again

Ten minutes ago I met you
And we murmured our "How do you do's?"
I wanted to ring out the bells
And fling out my arms and to sing out the news

I have found her
I have found him

In the arms of my love I'm flying
Over Mountain, and Meadow and Glenn
And I like it so well that for all I can tell
I may never come down again
I may never come down to earth again

2009-01-12T11:35:00.001+08:00

IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

May it be a wonderful sem : )

2009-01-10T23:00:00.003+08:00

Bidding makes my life sad.

I got my module. I should be happy. But not when the friends that you were looking forward to taking the module with you did not get the module.

Juat and I got Chamber Singers at 181 points. People put as high as 1k!!

Bimbo~ I'm glad we get to take the mod together at least! : ))

Well, this sem's bidding just got more crazy. What used to be at 1 point ended up becoming a few hundred points. It's killing and wiping all the points out.

Finance mods were 1k+ too! Thank God I got my MNO mod at 600. Which is super high too...the highest I have spent on a module till date.

Well, bidding is over for me this sem. And so is tutorial balloting coz most of the mods are either sectional teaching or they have already preallocated for me. So, timetable is fixed. Will be up soon. But I think most of the time would be used to doing projects or studying. Going to be a muggertoad this sem.

To a great Sem!!

2009-01-05T23:19:00.002+08:00

Willy shared this with me.

Red Light, Green Light Cat

It's very cute : )))

Takes away the "pain" of thinking that I paid 600 points for my MNO2302 Human Resource Management module.

I can't believe its the highest I spent so far for a module.

I must do well for it!

2009-01-05T17:42:00.003+08:00

Looks like I haven't been listening well or understanding my sermons well...Or do I just have a different understanding of it?

My parents shared something which I didn't think it was so grave. Maybe it's just the adults thinking too much into it? I never thought of it that way...

I teared for the first time during service. While we sang "I know who holds tomorrow"

"I don't know about tomorrow.

I don't seem to understand....

Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand."

True enough...

I don't know what will happen...

We're moving on...

Goodbye.

2009-01-05T15:44:00.002+08:00

I'm watching the 1 Litre of Tears movie now. And it's rather not as exciting as the drama. I was curious over whether the story is true to begin with. Well, the story about Aya is true but the additional things like the love relationship between she and her senpai and Asou-kun is dramatized. It's to attract people into buying the drama.

But the story is still very sad and touching even without the lovey stuff.

The actors and actresses were good!

The meaning behind it the story was clear and strong!

The songs and filming were good.

It's a must watch if you have the time!

2009-01-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

Nad called me strawberry on facebook. I suddenly had this flashback of me being called strawberry by Juat. And I was wondering how come Nad knew I was called strawberry...

And so, after a while of discussion, I realised why she knew...

[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:33:27 PM)

where were we talking about it??
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:34:00 PM)
or are u just guessing? haha
naddear says: (11:36:07 PM)
yes i was with you.
naddear says: (11:36:21 PM)
we were walking to mich's car..
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:36:37 PM)
SUNTEC AH??
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:36:40 PM)
was it that long??
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:36:44 PM)
or...
naddear says: (11:37:52 PM)
haha no.. it was at west coast
naddear says: (11:38:14 PM)
the 2nd time. we went back to school to scrouge for things
naddear says: (11:38:22 PM)
23rd dec
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:38:55 PM)
why did we even talk about that...oh yah!! WHEN WE WERE PUTTING THINGS INTO THE BOOT!
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:39:05 PM)
i remember the location where i said that!!
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:39:08 PM)
oh yah!! hahahaha
naddear says: (11:39:41 PM)
haha. cos me and mich were wondering where the nearest bodyshop was
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie says: (11:42:04 PM)
so whats that to do with the strawberry...
naddear says: (11:45:11 PM)
cos i lovepassionfruit stuff from bodyshop
naddear says: (11:45:18 PM)
then juat was saying.. some berry.
naddear says: (11:45:27 PM)
then you said you like strawberry.
naddear says: (11:45:36 PM)
i dunno what to call you, so i cally you strawberry!

My memory is failing me...

2009-01-01T15:01:00.003+08:00

If the 2009 doesn't go well and smooth, it's all her fault.

Fancy throwing a tantrum on the first day of the new year.

When I thought I had it all in control and going to make this a wonderful day!

But no...

And it's a day of sendoffs...

Korkor Yu-an to Utah, US this morning at 5am.

And Ziwei tonight at 8pm...

: ((

heavy hearted...

2008-12-31T11:07:00.005+08:00

1-Litre of Tears

My new addiction.

Thanks to Lizhen who told me about this a million times!

Happy 2009 to everyone!

Lots of Love,

Rachel

2008-12-27T02:08:00.003+08:00

I just have to be hit by news that I didn't want to know if I didn't have to know.

It's like showing that your friendship is worth more than my friendship with that same person.

Stop it ok! Coz I don't want to know what you are going to do with that person and that that person invites you out and you are going to have a very good time, and still ask how come I'm not invited or there when others are.

I'm trying to get myself out of this quicksand. But each time, I get pulled back in with having to overcome all these news that is hit at me. I am giving in a lot of courage and strength by stopping myself and changing this whole relationship and mindset that I have. So stop pulling me back into this dilemma and emotional state again.

I don't want to know. If this is your way of making yourself better then go ahead. But do it to others who have no concern at all coz you're hurting me. Do it to someone else who treats this person like a friend and no others. I'm still trying. So don't hurt me further.

Sometimes I just wish I didn't start it. Or didn't have feelings at all. Coz I know no matter how hard I try, I need a very long time to pull myself out of it. Emotions get the better of me. And though I know the two of you won't work out, I just don't like the fact that you click better with this person more than me. Or are you just showing off. Coz I do have times where I think I can show off too but I just don't.

I hate this feeling...

2008-12-25T02:38:00.003+08:00

I'll be home for Christmas...

NOT...

I'll be at Shangri-La hotel : )

Will be caroling there from 12pm to 930pm.

Have been having a really busy week. And I can't believe that everything is ending tomorrow!!! Preparation started in May, confirmations and invitations along the way! And now, performance is over!

I really enjoyed myself for the past few days : ) Singing in different positions, learning how to adapt to situations, memorising carols!! Whew! It's been one exciting week!

I found out through this course that people find me worried and stressed over things. But in actual fact, I'm not. Hmm...do I just have the default worried feel?

It's been great working on this project : ) VV'09 is the next big thing up!!

It's been great working with Nad, Mich and Harris too. And I really marvel at Nad for taking up such a heavy responsibility role. It's not easy being a president!! And she doubles up as a conductor : )

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The impromptu and really last min decided meetup with Ziwei and zhen was really fun : )

I met Ziwei after my caroling and we went to Starbucks at Millenia Walk. I had some meatloaf patty thing and a White Chocolate Mocha with Coffee base. YUMMY : ))

The conversation with Ziwei was rather mean. But not really personally mean. Heheh!! Ziwei you know i don't mean it : ) I was really glad we met up! Coz i think the next time I see you will be at airport, seeing you off : (

And meeting Zhen and eating her pizza lighted up my heart : ) Friend, you can bake!! HEHE : )))

And walking around Suntec's Fountain of Wealth with Precious Moments statues reminds me how precious you girls are to me : )

2008-12-22T01:28:00.002+08:00

It's been a long day!

Hilton at 3pm

Forum at 5pm

Conrad at 730pm.

Of all these places, I love Conrad the most : ) Coz I love standing in quartet!

Last night, Glenn was on my left and Huaizhi on my right. My left ear was gone.

Today, Huaizhi to my left and GABRIEL to my right! His HO HO HO MERRRY CHRISTMAS made me deaf in the right ear.

I just pray for everything to go smoothly tmr.

And may I have a good voice. A few more days of caroling!

2008-12-20T01:18:00.000+08:00

That's what I am going through now...

2008-12-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

A word of "Thanks for everything" melts the heart?

Naive.

2008-12-19T16:31:00.003+08:00

A Fri afternoon at home. How weird. With Little Nonya and Hello Kitty!!

Nad told me there's HELLO KITTY on a show which I never knew they did!

Well, to think when everyone has plans to go out after the performance at University Hall, I didn't. I didn't even know where I wanted to go. Arranged to meet Ziwei for dinner coz I didn't want to be home alone for the night. But well, she's sick and I guess should let her rest more. And I thought I would be ok but the flu is beginning to get worse now.

The performance at Uni-hall today went well! The sops were just a little under. I was sniffing and kinda down with a little flu. Yet I still sang. I seriously shouldn't have. 1 bad singer requires 3 good singers to cover up....I'm sorry!!

and I'm thinking if I should sing tmr...there are enough people for tmr. I must get well in time for tmr night at Conrad. It's going to be Close book!! And I really hope I can remember the lyrics.

It's going to be a hectic day tmr with 4 shows from 1pm to 830pm.

Here's our performance schedule for tmr.

1pm - Marina Square

3pm - Hilton Shopping Gallery

5pm - Forum Shopping Mall

730pm - Conrad Centennial Hotel

Do stay and listen if you happen to be in those areas ok!

I'm going to rest.

May the flu be gone..

2008-12-18T00:34:00.002+08:00

I'm at Ah Ma, Ah Kong's house : )

It's been a great day!

Stayed in hall overnight coz there was CD burning session yesterday and I was tooo lazy to go back home.

Spent the afternoon watching Heroes Season 1 with Ames : ) It's a freaky show and I was glad I watched it with someone. I probably would be eeking out if I watched alone! Ah..but Ames has got me started and hooked onto it now!

Left for grandparents place with da xiang (who was on the way to Vivo) about 520pm and we took 30. Silly me thought 30 goes to behind TKGS that bus stop so that I can change to (many buses to choose from). But I was wrong! I dozed off on the bus and good thing woke up in time to alight earlier! If not, I think I'll be sitting all the way to Bedok!

Went Parkway Parade shopping with Ah Ma and said Hi to bimbo as WE caroled. Did lots of walking and shopping, which I really did not want to buy. But Ah Ma just said buy!! And no matter how I tried to stop her, she and the other 2 shop assistants refused to stop me from agreeing.

Just managed to Skype with Mum and Dad! They look like they are really enjoying themselves in Paris! Maybe not enjoying coz of scenery etc..but I think them having each other as company is good enough for them :)

I'm happy :)

Alright! Ciao~

2008-12-15T01:34:00.005+08:00

I had a depressing night.

But a wonderful day.

Yes...a depressing night.

I shouldn't have asked. Knowing too much now is taking a toll on me. Again.

I never learn.

Teach me! someone!

To keep myself from knowing too much.

Tell me how to pull myself away from this pain in me.

The ones who light up my life like the stars in the sky...

I hope I'll move on...

2008-12-11T02:39:00.002+08:00

Jie is here to stay for the night. yea..after all that cleaning up i did last night and mum did this afternoon. Hehe!

But yea, I'm happy to have her over.

As at most sleepovers, we had a little chat that lasted about 2 hours...it just ended not too long ago..

It was quite a emotional conversation. We had pockets of time that we would start being teary and soured but it didn't flow out.

Seeing her go through this tough period and emotional attachments, I'm worried...

Much as i have been thinking that I'll take my time, I'm still young...don't worry...

But now...as people have been asking and talking about it, I am thinking...

I won't succumb to pressure. That's for sure. I'll take it as it comes. But I just can''t help thinking about it.

I pray for her. I pray for myself... I pray for all who need love...

Well, this world needs love.

One thing assuring that came out of the conversation is that: God will lead us and guide us. He will provide a way.

And there are so many people in this same situation. I'm sure I'll pull through.

I'm sure I'll find the right guy.

And I'm happy to have found out and shared something that has been troubling me for a long time.

Thank you jie.

2008-11-26T11:55:00.001+08:00

[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie is MIA-ing says: (11:48:04 AM)
lunch is back!

It's hard to find angels in hell, says: (11:54:28 AM)
thx lunch for walking back

"_________"

2008-11-25T13:47:00.003+08:00

OO I just have to share this!!

They are the Mormon Tabernacle Choir!! Soooo many of them and the orchestra is big! I want to be part of something like that!!!

And Climb Every Mountain just brings back the days of in the choir in Primary school, where we all hated the accidentals and the beginning. But now, I'm loving this : )

And for those who love Spongebob! hahahah!

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Ok, been on Facebook and Youtube the whole morning. The freaking iPhoto refused to upload my pics to facebook and keeps quitting "unexpectedly"! I expected it though. Anyone have an idea why it's like this??? Uploading through facebook reduces the quality and colour of the pics. Don't like >.<

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1 paper down yesterday. 3 more to go!

I CAN DO THIS!!

first of all..i need to stay away from the computer...

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Count down: 1 week!!!!

2008-11-24T14:29:00.002+08:00

I'm starting my 3rd major exam in NUS in 2.5 hours time.

ACC1006 - Accounting Information Systems.

Wish me luck.

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I'm already looking forward to the end of exams.

At the end of today's exams, I'm going back to hall to pick up stuff and see my dearies in hall!! It's been more than a week since I've seen them!! : )

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If only studying can be addictive.

2008-11-23T15:03:00.003+08:00

So awesome!!

No no..not the singing and the attempts to harmonize. But the family spirit they have! Wow! Imagine my family going to compete! hehehe >.<

I guess its the innovation and novelty of the competition. Just something soothing and different : )

OO and this is the week after the Umbrella show. Hmm...not well done. But the guys playing the violin are cool at 2:38.

Read more about them here.

And as I was just searching around.. I found this!!

its the great-grandchildren of the Von Trapp family that we watched about in Sound of Music! Awww... : )

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Ok. Study time.

2008-11-20T23:38:00.001+08:00

He could have chosen a better timing than now to release the grades. Why not after exams!!

I'm sad...

Argh..

What a time.

And studying is getting on my nerves.

2008-11-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

"we can go for lunch, site recce, dinner and practice, and supper"

2008-11-18T12:42:00.002+08:00

"Yeah, its like world tour.

Shangri-La is domestic."

ROFL : ))))

2008-11-18T10:04:00.002+08:00

I'm back at home : )

And I'm loving this study period!

Loving Mummy's cooking and her tender loving care!

Jogging with Dad this morning was fun :) Yes!! I JOGGED!

I am going to the sleep at 12am and waking up at 8am regime. Just that I slept at 2am last night coz was settling some choir stuff. But well, I WOKE UP! And we are going to continue to go for morning jogs together : ) At least for these 2 weeks.

I feel refreshed! And ready for the new day ahead! I must finish AIS today!

It's a week away and I'm not stressed at all! It's probably coz of the crunch time of assignments and test last few weeks that I hadn't had time to study. And now that I get time on my own, I'm taking it cool : )

Well, I hope not too COOL. I need to finish studying!

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Talking to Ben on Facebook chat last night was funny : )

It all started with us realising we have Justina as a common friend! First was Jun! Well, the world is small. And especially when you are in uni that your friends just are everywhere. Who knows, LC, you may know Ben too! HAHA!

We started complaining about school and exams...topics changed really fast! But I guess we are all going through the similar stages of life that we do have loads to share : )

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Even though I'm loving being back at home, I do miss a bit of hall life. Yes, Siao Er, I miss you!

And I miss neighbour! And I miss LIX!! But well, it's something I have to give up for the sake of exams. I'll be back sooon my dears!! : )

And I miss studying like last sem...outside with the Harris and the other choir people.

Well, these people will slowly walk out of my school life as they go SEP, graduate etc...I must get to a study-on-my-own lifestyle. At least I have Huifang : )

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Ok! Back to my books!!

All the best everyone!

Loves,

~PiNkDeLiGhTs~

2008-11-14T02:45:00.002+08:00

Yes...I've got the shooting down. I'd rather it be tonight then any other time.

I've noted my incompetency and lack of foresight.

The AAR was harsh...

I'll take note and learn from it.

And I hope it won't continue to be the talk of the committee.

Sometimes, I feel my brain just doesn't help me in thinking...

Stop working on feelings.

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And it had to happen when my exams is later at 4pm...

2008-11-13T19:27:00.002+08:00

Alright, I must admit that I have been rather moody, uptight and stressed these days. And this isn't reflecting well on me. I won't wait for people to tell me that. I know it myself.

For the don't-know-how-many-times in my life, I screwed up again.

Redbull came today. Please don't tell me it's not my fault. I should have been more assertive and "zh3u guan1". Like know when to do what. I shouldn't have taken other people's suggestion. And in the end, making things more difficult for myself.

I should have kept the motivation for asking the redbull girls down in my mind. But what was I doing???? Trying to please so many people. And in the end, compromising on my part. I'm sorry KR. I'm sorry for making you all coming down for dinner so early and in the end the girls weren't there. I'm sorry for being the nice girl and trying to juggle everything.

The girls were there really early at 520pm but yet, I kept changing instructions and asked them to give out to the concert goers for Y2J that is held in hall now. I thought of keeping them there first coz there were people around waiting for the concert and the dinner crowd hadn't come in. but when the Y2J crowd starting coming in, the dinner crowd came in too!! We changed plan and asked 1 to stay upstairs and 1 to go downstairs. but many residents left alr. so not all got it!! Well, but if I asked both to go down, would we have missed the upstairs group and gave out even lesser cans?

I don't know why I am so concerned about how many cans they are giving out. But I think if I asked them to bring more, I should have the responsibility to ensure I have the crowd there. Well, I guess it's just a timing issue. on one hand, I didn't "breach contract" coz it's true that they gave out more than 150. However, if just having our own residents, would we have seen such a crowd??

Let me have another chance. I promise I won't be bothered by other things when the main aim is for the welfare of the residents. I'll handle it better and more objectively.

On a happier note, the welfare team acknowledged Pius and I for our efforts : )

And Soon Fatt is proud of me : )

[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:39:20 PM)

gd job! :)

[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:39:27 PM)

told ya tt u've got the touch liao

[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie. says: (7:39:35 PM)

your guidance ma : )

[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:40:42 PM)

hahaha i din do much la.. i juz throw u in the water and make sure u survive.. den eventually u learn how to float urself

[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:40:44 PM)

like now :)

[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:41:06 PM)

coz marketing it's abt getting the touch.. den it's ez liaoz... wun be as intimidating as wat pple perceive

[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:41:10 PM):D

People are actually happy that Redbull came down and asked me to get them back again. But it depends...

Ok..I need to start studying...EXAM TMR!!!

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Trust.

2008-11-12T02:34:00.003+08:00

Scram off.

You can't make it, fine.

You are busy, fine.

BUT, DON'T USE THE EXCUSE THAT YOU HAVE TO STUDY TO SHUN AWAY THE RESPONSIBILITY!

I don't mind going down to do the collection. However, if you can't make it, can you just say you cannot make it? I won't question why. I'll just take it that you can't make it.

Maybe you were being honest, like your nature tells you that you should let your friend know why. And then you tell me you have things to do as well as study!!

Please, the last part pushed me off the corner of the rock! I need to study too! And so what if your exams are coming up and starting before mine?? It's only 2 days earlier than mine!! And I have a final term test on Fri and project due on Sat! And you are telling me that you can't go coz you need to study? And you sure know that I have time to go down! Doesn't it cross your mind that it's not my project! I was nice enough to get the things for you and this freaking comm! And the other person announces to the other comm that he got it??? Can't he just mention my name or at least just say that the Marketing Comm got it instead of him? Just coz he is the ic of it??

Fine, I'm not complaining! I will do this. And I'm fine with doing it. Just that I don't like the freaking excuses given. Coz it doesn't help when I have to study and yet juggle so many things!

PLEASE! Let me put down whatever else I have to do to just concentrate on my studying for exams!!!

I have to learn to be selfish!

I need to learn to say NO!!!

I was in a whirlpool of emotions today.

Tried being my cheerful self. But I just can't. Too tired I guess. And too tired of so many nonsense that I have to take care of. And it doesn't help when the others don't help and yet tell you so many freaking nonsense.

I want to be happy again...

URGH!!

This is one time that I really want to study!!!!

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PISSED OFF.

2008-10-28T20:15:00.004+08:00

8pm

Great... I thought I was being very hardworking and signed up for this presentation and leadership course by 3 toastmasters alumni. And I must admit it was due to peer pressure that I ended up here. And now, the few who asked me to come are not coming anymore...cheated do I feel?

Sometimes I think this course is good, but sometimes I don't think it is. I feel really stressed coming here. There's like so many other things to do back in my room and yet, here, I give in 3 hours every tuesday (frankly speaking, this is the only 4th lesson I'm here). The 3 instructors are contradicting themselves and arguing as we do our work. And criticizing using a really mean tone. I am like glaring at them so often.

And I hate the fact that they force us to do a speech. urgh..i should have known...

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820pm

Alright, I just presented and wow!! They didn't have much to say. Not like the last few people which they had a lot to comment about.

ok, imagine I am a CEO of a Tuition Centre

Vision
To impart knowledge to those who seek help.
To provide an avenue to develop each staff and student's potential to the fullest.
To establish a professional organization with responsible and initiative members.

Mission
The organization strives to provide each student and staff with a conducive environment for self-improvement and learning opportunities.
The students would be given chances to groom them into future leaders of tomorrow.
Furthermore, as a responsible organization, there is a need to develop the students and staffs to contribute back to society as much as they can.

Just that the older man said: "Huh! How old are the students you are referring to?"

me: JC, Uni students

man: HUH? You mean they are so useless ah?? So old already still go for tuition!

me: why not?! *ROLLS EYES!!*

other man and woman: Yah! They still have tuition! For GP and other things...

me: Yah! Like CHINESE and MATHS also!

man: Oh yah...those school of thought...ok, if its jc, uni then i think it's ok...nurture to become leaders..

me: Well, even if it were young kids, I can develop them and start them from young!

man: NO NO...From the young age! There'll be terror!!

Oh man..I just stood there rolling my eyes..i guess I looked like some b**** in front of the class. Good thing the other 2 of them said it was good. And that there is no ambiguity. Well, smart of me to choose something not so specific! haha!!

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835pm

Break time..but I guess I'll go out a little bit later...

9pm

ok..i went out for the food. and talked with the group about politics and the US elections. I must say the 3 instructors do have some knowledge and they are critical about things. It's a good learning point at least.

I enjoyed the break coz I understood what they said : )

oh dear...we are going to do a speech...haiz...I hate this word..

955pm

Alright, I've done my speech. Content was good. Words used were good. Just repeated a few words. Need to use more impressive and stronger words. Oh well...i'll improve on those!

And I didn't realise my posture was so weird! I was slanting a little to the right. Take note!! : )

Ok...battery is running out!!

And class is ending : )

bye all!

Loves,

~PiNkdeLiGhTs~

2008-10-24T12:13:00.004+08:00

I'm in the Biz Library Seminar Room now trying to complete the AIS project.

The air here is stale.

And my brain is losing oxygen.

The 5 hours of sleep last night is making things worse.

I want to sleep but I can't coz my other group mates are here doing the project...

Oh...let me have some time to sleep later...

I'm looking forward to the weekend and holiday but not to the amount of work due next week.

(And if you noticed, the pics at the previous post is soooo big, thanks to Juat's suggestion of uploading pics faster!)

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~

2008-10-24T02:52:00.003+08:00

DO I MAKE YOU PROUD

Do I Make You Proud - Taylor Hicks

[Verse One:]
I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

[Chorus:]
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud

[Verse Two:]
I guess I’ve learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I’ve learned to love,
Myself in spite of me,
And I’ve learned to
Walk on the road I believe.

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been
Never been afraid of standing out

Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud

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I'm addicted to this thanks to Harris : )

I'm really looking forward to performing it!!

Loves,

~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ I'm proud of you, Harris : )

2008-10-24T02:44:00.004+08:00

For the first time in 3 weeks, I finally managed to get a night of 9 hours of sleep! I couldn't take it last night and went off to bed at 12am!! And was awoken by the telephone call.

Every night has been sleep at 3,4 am and wake up at 8,9 am. What a terrible lifestyle. And last night, I started dozing off at my presentation preparation, which I had to push it to today to finish coz presentation was in the afternoon!

The MA presentation went all smoothly and we finished class 45 mins before time! : ) Thanks to Yue Jia, Ling Long, Kimberlyn, Hui Fang and Wai Yip for being such great MA group mates! I'm glad we managed to work together to complete these 2 presentations! :)

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Voice class was good :) Uncle Toh got us to learn about airflow and making our sounds less jagged. We used 5 Hebrew Love Songs tenors and sops parts :) I am loving VV'09 now!!!

Choir practice was even better! Sectionals were so so...with struggles of learning "Do I Make You Proud". Yes!! I am very glad that we are learning this song. Not heard of it before till Xianling told us it's by Taylor Hicks!! And so, it's on my iMeem on and on and on..But I am looking forward to performing this song : ) Well done Harris on the arrangement of songs : )

Uncle Toh took us for combines. For the first time, I sat down for 1+ hr of choir practice! He refused to let us stand up till we were ready to combine! Haha! For once we were all aching and hoping of standing up!!

Combines was great!! : )

After comm meeting and packing up, Juat, Harris, Michyyeoh, PeiSuen, Adit and myself stayed back to play around with the piano. Adit's hands are just fabulous! He just played the piano part for DIMYP with the choral score and waaalllaaa : ) The accompaniment!! He rocks!!

Supper after that at Holland V! And Halloween hunting for some stuff after that : ) Next Thur's is HALLOWEEN PARTY for NUS Choir!! :)

Thanks Michyyeoh for the ride back! You must be tired driving the whole bunch of us back to NUS!

And I'm the new addition to the lala family! The lala parents just decided to adopt me! haha!! Bimbo Juat! Haha!!

Do I Make You Proud..

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Just a few photos from Wed (22 Oct) Sheraton Hotel recee for Student Achievement Award.

Sleepy Harris and I while waiting for the organisers.

The stage would be just under the projector screen.

And with the person in charge of us for that day, JASON.

Think again if you find him familiar : )

Jason from Project Superstar season 1

After the recee, Harris and I went to Novena for lunch. Met Nadiah there for lunch too and we walked to United Square for Ben and Jerry's :)

I had Strawberry Cheesecake, Nad had Cheesecake Brownie and Harris had Chocolate Chip DOUGH! Yes, it tasted like FLOUR!

I had a great time :) And I'm really glad that I could go for the recee. And learn a bit about event planning. Most IMPORTANT THING! To have a clear mind and know what exactly we want. And how we can make the best out of it. A tough decision to make but it was necessary.

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ TOTALLY PROUD AND HAPPY!

2008-10-20T00:18:00.003+08:00

This was supper treat bought by Weewen, my new laoban, for last night's first official meeting with my other Marketing Executive, Piuzy : )

We had a wonderful 2.5 hour meeting but it was great :) I am looking forward to a fantastic working relationship with them! Especially since Piuzy has been my project group mate for 1 year or 3 sems already, I'm sure we'll do well!

I've much to learn from this experienced guy and I think it's going to be a good year if not better!

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Yes Ziwei!! 5 Hebrew Love Songs! The one we loved so much but didn't get to finish learning and not even being able to perform it! A pity you can't join us :( And I don't think you'll be around in Singapore to even watch my concert right?

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I'm done with my SOM essay : ) But it's 200 words over the limit!! 800 max but I have 1000! To think I thought I would just crap something out. Well, writing about 11 Oct's charity concert, I realised I do look out for quite a bit of things during the concert! And how appreciation of the concert does not just happen at the surface but also the inner feelings.

Next up in SOM is the MIDI which I haven't started at all! HOW??!!

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And this weekend just passed like this. Stayed back in hall yesterday to complete much. But feels like I didn't. Yesterday was spent doing SS research for the report. And did MIS tutorial. After that going for the meeting. And coming back doing some tidying up...sleeping at 3am and amazingly managed to wake up at 7am to go to church!

But the effect took place in this afternoon where my productivity level was really low and didn't do much besides sorting out my notes. And sleeping for an hour before waking up for dinner and watching a bit of TV. The 7pm show on Channel8 - Relentless Justice, was really depressing today with the main character hitting the dumps down low and making people wonder how he has all that courage and strength to face such horrendous setbacks.

Well...Time to get back to my books and prepare for Thurs' tutorial presentation discussion...and complete some assignments...I WILL PULL THROUGH!! I KNOW I WILL!!

All the best everyone!

~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ whoever said uni was easier than jc??

2008-10-17T02:27:00.002+08:00

I've really no energy and time to blog seriously about the many things that have happened for the past few months.

Given the many exciting things that happened during the mid sem break in Sept and all the meetings/outings/foooood/buffets with hallmates (ame, lix, se, ethel, lean!) and of coz WEIRDZ :)

Didn't get to meet up with KXFZ (10 Oct) coz of the preparation for the charity concert the next day. It was really tiring performing at the charity concert, especially singing in Jubilee Hall.

Have been going through like lots of emotion ups and downs and I guess next few weeks is going to be worse with all the project and individual assignments due which I haven't started on.

Supper with the flaggers (zh, jel, henry, xb and gs) just now was really fun! Esp meeting them to relieve a little stress. : )

And the small msn chat that i had with ex-laoban last night was really great! I really thank him and appreciate all that he has done for me and taught me the past year! And he gave me the encouragement that I think will keep me going on this coming year! Yes, I took on the job of the Hall's Marketing Executive again this year and it's going to be really tough. I want to do more and even more than last year! Lao ban said don't need to make up for last year coz we did really well and listed the things that we got for hall! I didn't think it was that good but alright, presentable : )

And this year has to be better knowing that I have a great partner : )

The comm applications for hall this year really drove many of us nuts. At least not for me. Since I already know I don't want to join so many things. But I didn't know how naive I was to think that everything would be done transparently. 1 year of being in hall, it makes me realise...

And worse thing that happened again tonight is when SE didn't get the survey slot but I got it, when she is the one who recommended me to it! And when I sent it in later than her! Isn't it first come first serve??? This is the 2nd time now!! It's really not fair and I'm upset at that.

Haiz...why didn't she get it..then things will be ok. I really feel like giving up my place to her now...

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Choir was really fun just now with Terrence coming down to combine 5 Hebrew Love Songs : ) Learnt it in sec school but only till the 3rd movement. I'm so excited about it like finally being able to combine and perform it :)

People!! I'm starting to promote Varsity Voices 2009 : ) 21st February 2009, Sat, UCC Hall : )

And comm meeting was also SUPER FUN! We've got something up our sleeves : ) WHeeeee!!

I hate to say this but when it comes to times of stress and trouble and unhappiness, I really enjoy choir! I guess this is one of the other reasons that I come to Choir - to meet likeminded people and get crazy together and be of comfort to one another!

Thanks Fellow Bimbo for bringing up that idea : ) YOU ROCK!! :) I really hope it goes well!

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I'm going to sleep...It's been this kind of timing that I am going into lala land every night... And I'm surprised I managed to keep awake for my 3 2hours tutorials today, with 1 seeming like an impromtu presentation and the other a prepared presentation. 2presentations in a day!! What an achievement!

Alright, I better have some quiet time tmr so that I can finish up any leftover things and prepare for my 2 presentations next week! Oh yah, for the record, I had 3 presentations this week. And I need to write the letter to my future self which everyone in the fun comm has handed in but me...sorry mich! I know you're reading this...but I really have no time to talk to myself. And i really want to do it up nicely coz it's my letter to myself :)

Thanks for initiating it :)

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Loves loves loves...

Tmr will be a better day :)

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~

2008-10-12T15:43:00.004+08:00

Go the Distance / No Importa La Distancia

Loving this after hearing AJChoir sing the Spanish version last night at the Charity Concert : )

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

Una vez sone

Que en algun lugar

Yo podia ser alguien

Si lograse amar

Y tambien sone

Que si he de triunfar

Mi orgullo aferrado

Tendre que superar

Un dia llegare

No importa la distancia

El rumbo encontrare

Y tendre valor

Paso a paso ire

Y persistire

A cualquier distancia

Yo el amor alcanzare

Una vez te vi

Era todo irreal

Y aunque fuese un sueno

Te sentia junto a mi

Se que estas ahi

Que te encontrare

Aunque tarde una vida

Yo jamas renunciare

Un dia llegare

No importa la distancia

El rumbo encontrare

Y tendre valor

Paso a paso ire

Y persistire

A cualquier distancia

Yo el amor alcanzare

Mas alla de toda gloria

Del orgullo y el valor

El poder de un heroe

Esta en su corazon

Un dia llegare

No importa la distancia

Junto a ti estare

Con tu resplandor

Paso a paso ire

Y persistire

A cualquier distancia

Yo tu vida y tu amor tendre.

2008-09-19T03:46:00.004+08:00

When life is full of ups and downs...

Yes, I've learnt another lesson today. Life lesson I must say. Not experienced by me, but by my close friend in hall. And with other examples and thoughts by my fellow flaggers...

Seriously, what's life without friends?

Is a boyfriend necessary?

But a horrible boyfriend?

After seeing much from them, I really wonder if that kind of pain is worth going through? And whether we should think so much? Human feelings are such that it just can't be swiped off the shoulder so easily. And when someone gets hurt, the pain and sorrow stays.

But what others are looking at is just a momentarily time of fun and companion. Why think so much??

Life goes on... when one gets hurt and another thinks about him/herself.

And it's not the first time, it's over and over again. But still, the girl can't give up.

And the guy just goes on causing emotional stress and no sign of understanding.

And the girl's friends just hates this guy for the emotional rollercoaster ride he takes the girl on.

Friends, please be careful. No matter what other guys think like "why think so much? Have fun!", they are the ones having fun. Not you! Your emotions won't take it so easily. And when it sinks further, life isn't going to be good for a while after that...

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After an early end of choir practice, I was back in hall at 945pm! the earliest since eons ago! And I thought I would just end up in my room, mugging and clearing work. But I found myself in Weewen's room chatting. And then Ethel and Amelia came by. We started on the topic of the financial crisis that's going on now. And I'm glad for the accountant friend who keeps his mind on these issues. (Saved me the trouble of reading the papers and articles!) And we went through some pressing life issues that we may face.

1030pm, I went back to my room, got ready to shower, but a friend was going through an emotional rollercoaster ride...So, it was another hr with her. I must say that the things that she is undergoing is educational. And true, what my AIS lecturer said, "Learn from mistakes. But don't commit them to learn. Learn from other people's mistakes. They are free."

So, it was a night of understanding boys and army.

And more when I met up with Kelvin, Zhu, Ww, Jel, Henry and Kenny for supper at Sheares. (The usual 1am Flag supper gathering at Sheares every Thurs.) More news and sharings. and it continued as we sat at the lobby.

Thoughts that never went through the mind.

Thoughts that you never thought your own friends would be experiencing...

Thoughts.

And more Thoughts.

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ And I thought for once I could sleep early...

DND later : ) Theme for my table this year is Rugrats. I wonder how it'd turn out...

2008-09-13T16:27:00.002+08:00

The school term has started and officially starting to kill me softly.

As I do every single tutorial, I have been ponning lectures though. I have skipped at least 6 lectures already but 5 lectures have webcasts. So, I officially missed only 1 lecture. Even so, I sleep in most of the Managerial Accounting lectures... what difference does it make?

But still, I'm taking it well. Tutorial presentation went well on Thurs with great group members and I'm sure we'll do well for the next one too! After the presentation, the tutor said, "Hmm, Rachel, you have a nice voice yah! You should join the choir. I'm sure you can sing very well!" Does that all justify why I'm in choir? :)

And I've made new friends coz of tutorials group work. And found a transport to CFA every thursday for this sem. No more squeezing the bus and wondering if I'll get to CFA on time. Oh..but that is if he goes that way every thurs. But still, I'm glad for this new friend!

And many more little things along the way, like Lix still helping me to take breakfast, friends still asking me if I need lunch, dinner...helping me to do so many things...

And for the wonderful seniors supper we had on Thurs, that I was able to lead the E block song :) Just that many weren't able to sing it coz I started too high...As Gim Sen always complains...I must learn to start songs lower. JiaMinh and Cherry did a great job! Well done :)

And for the exciting JCRC rallies esp Weewen who answered the Q&A well! And is now the 29th JCRC Finance Director with 90.4% votes of confidence! Friend, I'm proud of you! And I am looking forward to working with you! (If it does happen.)

And for the sinful but fun flag suppers we have, making everyone so envious of us as we have prearranged suppers without having to remind. It's a great catchup session for all of us and to continue keeping the bond strengthened. It was a great comm to be in : )

I recently have been making so many plans but really wonder if I'll get down to it. I'm going to pursue my piano theories again. No particular reason but for the love of music. I really miss the days of studying theory. Maybe The Science of Music module is lighting up the passion again!

The Youth Gospel meeting started yesterday with Tim's debut sermon. It was great! And there are more guys up next! Jia you Willy, Eugene and Sean!

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it's another weekend of not studying...

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~pinkdelights~ i can't wait : )

2008-08-27T10:58:00.002+08:00

Things are suppose to be slowing down for me. But I just see myself picking up more and more things. Not by choice but coz of school.

The main aim of coming to Uni is to learn and to get a certificate which will entitle me or rather enable me to get a job easily. However, that mindset of mine has changed over the year. Or did I even start with that mindset?

The toastmasters class last night showcased various topics from general issues to personal issues to the arts, to the sciences...and it set me thinking for a long time. Have I been missing out on many things and many people?

True, I have neglected my family, my friends. We have all changed so much over the year that the priorities have also changed. I no longer speak to my parents as often. And as someone's topic last night was about "what about your parents?", set me thinking where are my parents in my plans. And the same goes for my grandparents and many others...

I'm considering the next step for me. I don't wish to let go of anything that I have done and I want to carry on. Listening to Doris speech last night, why because of other's comments that you stop yourself from going far?

I have an answer already, but yet, I am still thinking and trying to get other answers. Why? Because of insecurity. I am just unsure of the future.

But this is enough an encouragement :)

(li) NoB0dy @s SeRn @s MeE +o( (̅_̅_̅_̅(̲̲̲̲̲̅̅̅̅̅̅(̅_̅_̲̅V̲̅i̲̅c̲̅t̲̅o̲̅r̲̅i̲̅a̲̅_̅_̲̅C̲̅h̲̅o̲̅r̲̅a̲̅l̲̅e̲̅̅_̅_̅_̅() (li) says: (10:38:16 AM)
i felt that it was good also, esp during the holidays when u were so blur at the beginnign and then eventually u struggled and managed to put things in perspective...
(li) NoB0dy @s SeRn @s MeE +o( (̅_̅_̅_̅(̲̲̲̲̲̅̅̅̅̅̅(̅_̅_̲̅V̲̅i̲̅c̲̅t̲̅o̲̅r̲̅i̲̅a̲̅_̅_̲̅C̲̅h̲̅o̲̅r̲̅a̲̅l̲̅e̲̅̅_̅_̅_̅() (li) says: (10:39:03 AM)
the coy will not recognise it, but with that kind of skills learnt and experience gained, it will bring u far.......

And I think this is one experience that no internship can earn me :)

Thank you Kent Ridge Hall for your support!

Love,

PiNkDeLiGhTs

2008-08-23T12:48:00.002+08:00

The 2nd week to the start of the new semester and academic year has ended. And till to date, there are 4 tutorials due next week! 2 mods uploaded just yesterday! And i thought I could have a good weekend. Oh well, it's time to really get down to studying!

Anyway, here's my timetable! It's not that packed. There are 2 tutorials with alternating weeks! Woohoo!! And ACC1006 is half sem the first timing and 2nd half of the sem the 2nd timing. But, ACC2002 is 2 hours a week :((

I just hope the accounting mods won't kill me. Coz I really like the lectures so far! I just hope it's not the appetizers only and give me a plate full of chilli and spices later on...

Here's my timetable!

Sorry guys...if I can't meet you all for lunches this sem. It's really horrendously packed and I think my whole week will be spent with biz best coursemates ever Huifang and Sara...

Looking forward to a wonderful sem!! :)

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Impromptu volleyball game with Jiaminh, Lix, Huluz, Minyi, Mark and Andy was really fun :) With just the ball flying around, it seems really easy to play. But when the real game starts, it's just too hard to score. And I haven't played a real game so far! I hope to be put down on court next Fri for the IBG volley game. But I'm just wondering if they would. And I do really do funny stuff on court...But if it's all for fun : )

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The weather is really nice to sleep but bad for laundry...My clothes have been washed at least 2 times before I can wear them. That's coz it's been raining so often that when I hang out, it gets wet soon when we don't watch the weather. It's really bad...

Oh well..I miss the sunny days!!

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~

2008-08-21T01:29:00.002+08:00

The 3 days of interviews and auditions are over! And I did 2.5 days of interviews, that's about 30odd people for me! And talking non stop from 630pm to 930pm over once too many made me feel like taping it down and playing it, and get them to just tick and write their own answers.

I am really glad for my MJ people who got in :) yay!! our population is expanding! Marcus, Jeremy, Gerald T, and Huiling!! wooohooo!!

And i hope brother does his best tmr! It's our BIG day! We either make it or break it. So here goes our baby sitting skills! Jiayou comm!

Kinda sad that I had to walk back alone today. suddenly all the PGP people just moved out and no one to walk back with me after choir and the last bus...juatjuat takes only a few mins to get back! And I took at 20mins brisk walk...alone..scaring myself along the way when i didn't see these few white sheets of paper hanging down from the bus stop and walking straight into it...and lights suddenly blow off just as I walked past it! Freaky! And it was 1145pm.

And coz of choir, I missed block initiation..and the bonding with the juniors. I am really phantoming from block...not by choice..and missing "jasmine's" 21st birthday celebration!

And I got back hungry. Good thing siao er had donuts! And we shared 2 small donuts! Bathed with lix and erz :) Loving my 5th floor short wing life now :)

Went down after that to wish "jasmine" happy birthday! But he was "sleeping" already. So had a small chat with weewen and got my textbook from him. "jasmine's" friends came over to hang a string of balloons across his door! sooo sweet :) but they ran off after putting it. When he opened his door, weewen and i sang birthday song to him! And he brought a little corner of his cake out for me :) Well, they saved it for me!! :) (just that lix and erz didn't tell me they saved a small piece for me! if not i wouldn't have eaten the donuts. Oh well, saving the cake for tmr :))

And I am a happy girl now :) Coz i know that there are people who care and think of me! And I'm glad that "jasmine" wasn't angry I wasn't around! happy birthday!

ps. jasmine = jia minh. I once mistaken his signature as Jasmine and I've been calling him that ever since :)

1st day of choir tmr :)sooo exciting! And I already have people emailing to ask me if the names on the list in the choir forum means any rank? And people calling me to tell me they are so excited and shocked at the results. I'm quite too actually. But, we'll see how.

Free day tmr but i'll try to start studying!! I MUST!!

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And I shall do some exercise by going for volleyball training later at 6am :) Support "jasmine" :)

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ There's nothing more than a family :)

2008-08-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

First time balloting for 4 modules for tutorials was exciting! And I am glad that Huifang and I got through it all :) Yay!! We got all 4 of our choices and my timetable is much loved! though it looks a bit crammed...

haiz..poor sara didn't get all her modules... and that means we would be classmates for only 2 mods :(

Timetable will be up soon :))

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Life has been rather fun and I am kinda missing the holidays! The Flag team grew really close for the last few weeks of planning and it still carries over till today! Lunch with Weewen, Zhu and KelChew was great and entertaining! And now, they are out for supper! Don't know why they have soooo much energy! Kinda feeling a little hungry now too though...

I'll miss the days with them. But life goes on. And I don't know why I am putting it aside so fast...

Maybe it's coz I am too tied down with the post marketing and sponsorship stuff. There's loads to do!!

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Choir auditions today was fun :) With many people coming back to help and interact! I am glad it went well! And interviewing people was also great! But tiring and thirsty-ing... There's more to come! Wheeeee!!

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Loving my shortwing girls too! :)

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ K k k k k rrrrrrr!

2008-07-28T03:30:00.002+08:00

Day 0 of FWOC

It's the first day with the freshies as they start moving into hall! One year ago, I was like them...A stranger to many things. But thanks to Jonathan and Jun Kang who moved my things to my room and a warm welcome from them, I settled in quite fast! And of course, there was SIAOER! Who is now my NEIGHBOUR :) 5th floor shortwinger!! Thanks loads for the door gift :)

Flag comm met at 2pm and we sorted out the door gifts. (Coasters from us) We watched the Flag intro video too! IT'S AMAZING!! The video was simply fantastic! Well done Ethel, Jelaine, Kelvin and Yu Hang...they spent countless of sleepless nights just to do that! And it was really cool!! Too bad its too big to put on youtube! haha! But ya..coz of that, many of us had to show our bimbo side of us which...made quite a big impact on the audience I must say! They remember us now at least!!

Icebreakers with freshies were not too bad! E blockers are from Oreum with Amelia and Lionel as our Fwocers! They are reallly enthusiastic!! I just hope their enthusiasm will stay with the rest of Fwoc! Daryl and Cabin are in my OG! More crap and laughs with them!

And while playing one of the icebreakers, we had to say something interesting about ourselves. So, when I caught the yard of string, I said that Ethel and I are twins! And some of the freshies really believed!! Something wrong happened when we were born I guess!! :O

I just bathed...and after 2 hours of flag meeting, I am really sleeppy!!

More tmr!!

Nites all!!

~PiNkDeLighTs~

2008-07-26T01:57:00.004+08:00

Sad and depressing posts aside!

As the whole flag comm goes into a hysterical mode of stress and deadlines to meet, we should put away all other unhappiness and grumbles aside. Everyone is showing signs of "huo qi" now and then coz they can't get the stuff done. But I haven't seen anyone blown up yet! Like venting anger on others.

I must say even though things don't go the way I want it to be, it still flows nicely!

I really love the chapalang gang (aka miscellaneous) for making things move so well thus far! We are almost done with publicity stunts, bazaar prep, auction prep! Just have to wait for next week when the real show starts! Our deadlines are all by monday!

I'm really proud of zhu and myself for completing the slideshow :) Don't really like the ending, but it's alright :) I almost teared when I saw it...hopefully that will just hit the audience straight in their hearts and minds : )

1 day to FWOC!!!! And a year of being a kent ridgean : )

3 months with these people have just passed this fast... I shall try to be more understanding and lend more helping hands when can! Afterall, we are one family...

And thanks to yiwern for making such an effort for the frame on my door : )

Full pic of the comm : ) 16 of us!

Ethel Twinny and I :) (yup, we share the same bdae)

~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Let's move on!

2008-06-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

I am back from Batam!

It was a great trip with the FWOCers and the Flaggers! Well, maybe not so smoothly. But at least we managed with situations and built the friendship on those.

We suffered minor injuries from playing at the waters, walking, climbing etc. but all back safely :)

Food was wonderful with us paying like a little less than $10 each time for a sumptuous meal shared between 12 people. Flaggers showed lots of love and shared everything that we had, even to creating a din at the dining table just to serve each other. Even the Fwocers were amazed at how dynamic our team was. We just love helping each other - which I am glad for :)

I tried many stuff such as Jet skiing at the beach! And foot and nail spa for 100000 rupiah ~ $15! And a lot of other great food!

We had loads of fun in the night watching movies, playing cards, playing POLAR BEAR! :) where I seriously loved diverting attention! A big group of people just make playing so fun!

It was a great bonding session with the Flaggers! Thank you YiWern, Zhu Hui, Twin Ethel, Jelaine, Jasmine, Weewen, Gim Sen, Shawn, Yu Hang, Kenny and Kelvin! I really enjoyed myself with all the crap, love, care, concerns and chats that we had! Through this trip, we have grown closer to each other and I am sure I'll miss you guys when flag has ended!

I didn't bring my camera, so pictures will only be in facebook by YiWern and the rest who took pics...we took a lot of stupid pics..hehe! Our favourite pastime seems to be camwhoring!

Btw, the cruise ride was not bad. Maybe I was very tired..I slept all the way through the 1 hour ride just now. And I'm feeling tired now too...oh well...it's been a great week with the travels that I am starting to miss home...

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Happy Birthday Daddy ;) I hope you like the new shirt :) And the birthday cake! Big baby! But don't grow any bigger kk!!

LOVE YOU DAD :)

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Loving the people :)

2008-06-27T08:32:00.002+08:00

Hello all!

I am away for hall comm retreat at Batam from today till Sun.

Will do many updates when I am back :)

Russia was great! And NUSChoir came back as overall champs :) 100 points (full marks, perfect scores) for both Open Mix Adults and Sacred Music :)

TKChoir came in 2nd overall with 100 points in Open Mix Youth and 96 for Folklore!

I am glad we went :) St. Petersburg is a place I definitely want to go back again in the future! And when I do, I will go back to buy my Russian doll! A bigger one :)

Some pics are up on facebook already!!

Gtg! Take care everyone ;)

LOVE,

~PiNkDeLiGhTs~

2008-06-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

Bye everyone :)

Russia will be my home from tonight till 24th June :)

Please pray for NUSChoir and my safety and for TKChoir and Bro's safety too! We'll do our best to bring back good news and bring glory to Singapore :)

LOVES,

~Rach~

2008-06-05T02:33:00.002+08:00

Hi all!

I am now in room A319 with xuan and huluz :)

CampBlueBlood is starting!! 1 year ever since I have known Siaoer...girl! I miss you!!! Happy 1 year anniversary :)

CBB is going to be lots of fun! And the briefing was quite fun and not draggy long...

I am going to play my hearts out and try to do some work inbetween.

As of now, I am super tied down with the camp, having 2 games to be IC (which I have no idea what it is now) and 1 food IC :)

But even with the work, I am glad that I'm in CBB :) I hope I'll enjoy it more than being a freshie! And little xiuqi is coming! With she being in my sister group! Shhh...don't tell her I said that :p

Will update more when I have the time.

And so, I'll be on camp from today 5th June till Sat 7th June with Thurs night and Sat afternoon given to choir!

SLEEEEEEPPP!!

with only 5 hours each night, my body is beginning to show signs of cui-ing-ness.

~PiNkdEligHtS~Lord, please be with me...

2008-05-30T20:25:00.004+08:00

Can someone show me some light at the end of the tunnel?

Can someone tell me that my life is a light unto them?

Can someone tell me that I have not lived my life in vain?

And can NUS please tell me I can still see light to the end of my uni days...

Another disaster has occurred in my education life and it has not made me any happier.

It's worse this time.

Maybe it's the way I studied...

Maybe it's the modules I took...

Honesty tells me that I have tried and really studied to the best of my abilities and I STARTED EARLY!

I have learnt my lesson from last sem and did my tutorials.

I tried to keep awake at most lectures.

I paid attention in tutorials. I asked...

BUT, it didn't pay off...

why...

and why does it seem that it's MY FAULT?!

I did not want it to happen...

Did you have to throw a tantrum in front of me? can't you just say some nice encouraging words like you always have? Or maybe that's why I am like that...coz you always do encourage me till I take it as if nothing happened...

I wanna leave home...

Still, congrats to my dear friends who did well :) Or at least well enough to me. And no, I am not being a brat.

2008-05-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

If you could tell, I am actually not really enjoying this holiday. It's freaking me out more than I can handle.

An influx of sms' at 12am is a scary thing. AND I AM BEGINNING TO FEEL SCARED...

You msg me to say you want to meet me tmr night and with no smiley faces or please or thankyou or any kind words, just saying, can i have a meeting with you when you come to hall? is not kind enough for me. In fact, it's scary. I have no idea what you want to talk about. And it's probably going to put me down at any cost. I didn't know what s*** i am going to be into. And now I know why no one wanted to take up this s***** job that's super freaking difficult. And HEAVY RESPONSIBILITY. I am just not passionate about this duty. But no way can I pull myself out of this grave I have dug for myself.

I am lazy. And yes, I am dumb at this kind of marketing and sponsorship thingy. And worse still, I have no one else to help me share this job. The other 2 guys are like handling something else and I don't know how to delegate some of this job over to them. And here, people are saying they are confused over this whole darn system and have no urgency or initiative to ask me. Instead they just complain to their bosses over this thing. Have they no idea I have no one to complain or talk to about this?

And can I do anything about it?? I think this 3 months is going to be a terrible time for me.

Someone? Can help me to get sponsors??

I don't think i can do this alone...

I just want to do choir stuff and leave the rest alone...

Ame asked me yesterday (Sun): You are working on a Sun?

Yes, when she is just incharge of one comm, she can afford to work 5 day week and have a lot of free time. But when I have 1 lovely comm :) And 1 friendly comm :) And 1 camp comm and 1 freakingly scary comm made up of 4 comms, 24hours a day, 7 days a week is not enough time for me. Tell me how can i not work on a sun??

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I can't drop any of the comms can I?

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Feeling trapped...how...

2008-05-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

There's just so much that happened during the week..and I am tired of what is happening. Not to say that it is repetitive but it's just getting a bit too much for me to take. I am tired of writing proposals and letters to various people... Ah well..shall not complain too much about that...

I am enjoying Choir and all that I do for choir. :) I think that's the only thing that keeps me sane and moving.

24th May 2008 (Sat)

Today's practice was kinda under the weather..just as many of us are beginning to be under the weather in the morning. Which is bad, and we have to start getting used to the morning feel. Our competition is in the morning and we have to sing out the "atmosphere" even if it doesn't feel like it should be there at that time.

we spent most of the time doing luk luk choreo...and after the prac, harris and i went to see mj. I really hope we are able to progress as well as mj :) Their dance is almost near flawless. and it looks not bad :) But they are too big a choir to do any big position movements. I think the effect harris has in mind sounds great :) I hope we pull through! And I hope MJ gets great results in Olomouc :) JIA YOU my dear juniors!!

And our teaching stint at MJ is over..considering since the juniors can work on their own now :) And they have been doing a great job! Time for Harris and me to step back...

[Eguanas] Xianie says: (11:49:13 PM)
great job harris =0
harris says: (11:50:10 PM)
haha
harris says: (11:50:12 PM)
thank you (:
harris says: (11:50:16 PM)
thanks for helping too!
[Eguanas] Xianie says: (11:51:05 PM)
considering i made a mess the first time
harris says: (11:51:22 PM)
haha with good intention
[Eguanas] Xianie says: (11:51:39 PM)
woah, what a consolation =0

After seeing the dear juniors, we walked to the bus stop and started calling the other people like nad and mich. OO, but they all ignored the poor guy. We decided to go to parkway for lunch instead since 16 came. Along the way, mich and nad called back. Mich was at bugis and asked if we wanted to join her at city hall for shopping. So, we continued the journey to Suntec for lunch first before meeting mich.

We settled at Secret Recipe for tea :) It was a great afternoon spent away from the computer and emails :) And the 2 of them can be weird sometimes. I'm glad for such wacky seniors! :>

Went grandparent's place after that and my cousins have all turned DARK! And I haven't :( Losing my tan after all the time being in the sheltered room.

I had many things running through my head just now. And thinking about a lot of things recently... And seeing how some people have dreams for themselves and what they want to achieve, I haven't done any serious thought about that. And to think I said i'll use the hols to think. Till now, I haven't done so. When are you going to wait till Rachel? Till you graduate??

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~pInkDeLiGhTs~ I want improvement...

2008-05-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

I just need someone to know what situation I am in. (thanks siao er and nad for listening to me bitch!)

And no one can truly understand what I put myself through.

And I thought I could handle everything that I chose to do, and that I won't be alone! But so far, 4 committees and 24 hours a day for me...It's worse than studying for exams.

If you think I am enjoying my hols, you are wrong!!

I haven't had the time to pack my room which is in a horrible state still.

I haven't done my favourite hobbies.

I haven't done anything not related to marketing!

I haven't met my dearest friends.

I haven't really sat down with my parents for a nice long talk.

I haven't gotten close to God...

Am I losing the enthusiasm? Am I losing the faith? Am I losing the interest?

At least not for Choir! Which I am enjoying every second of it whether at practice or outside prac with the choir people.

Flag is also getting great :) Coz we are getting to know each other better.

But the overall marketing project is scaring me and making me feel really demoralised. And having people blaming me for things which I did not do is not making it better.

Welcome to the working world man...where you see people accusing you when they themselves don't bother. Who am I??

I just have to bear with this and hopefully get sometime for myself soon...

I thank God for Gim Sen and Nad who are great bosses :))

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~PinKdeLighTs~ A not so enjoyable holiday...

2008-05-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

Even though I am in the serious need of sleep now, I thought i'd just write down what I have been busy with ever since my exams ended!

It's ONLY BEEN 1 WEEK since school ended and I have been terribly busy already!

10 May 2008 (Sat)

After my paper, I went Vivo and then went back to hall to pack up. Finally moved home!

Bought nice flowers for the mummies :)

11 May 2008 (Sun)

Church in the morning. Went back to Harbourfront centre to buy more flowers for other mummies I didn't buy for and then went to grandparent's place for the MUMMY'S DAY POPIAH LUNCH :)

Yup! The mummies loved the flowers! EVERLASTING :))

Was at grandparents place for the whoooole day! Got back home and started cleaning some stuff in the room! MY MESSY ROOM!

Yes, the room is still in such a mess even though mummy tried to clear a bit of stuff for me. And they got me some ikea shelves and a new ikea roller chair :)

OO and after going to Michy's place today (19th May), I SO LOVE HER ROOM!!! It's pink and so nice to go back to!!

12 May 2008 (Mon)

Went to school with Dad and then had meeting. Went for VJChoir concert in the night. Entertainment value was quite high but sound wise, I didn't think it was as fantastic as their previous concerts and batches. Anyway, thanks to dear Ann, we got $33 seats! LOL! Thanks to Ann for BK dinner :) Went Starbucks with some of the choir peeps! And so, today marks the beginning of leaving house early in the morning and reaching home at about 12am.

13 May 2008 (Tues)

Went to school with Dad again and then had meeting...again. 2nd day in a row. But the company is great :) Feeling more bonded with them.

Had sectionals at 730pm. Before that had Subway with Adit, SS and slowly, the rest came. Start of eating fastfood as meals! :(

Sectionals was quite ok! And getting the TENOR guys to fill in the visa forms was LOADS of HILARIOUS FUN! I conclude, GIRLS are smarter at filling in forms!

Adyll gave me a lift to Aljunied mrt where I took the almost last train and got home at 1130pm.

Snooze...

14 May 2008 (Wed)

Met Nadiah at Raffles Place MRT and we walked to the Arts house for the CFA Leadership Retreat (Lead De Ship). Met Michy there! We had loads of fun playing some funny ice breaking games, meeting the rest of the CFA leaders, talking about the future plans of CFA and NAF and the choir. And for one of the ice breaking games, Nad, Mich and I with 2 others won! By no strategy! The others who played with strategy lost! HAHA! Does strategy work? Maybe in the long run. Or maybe we were just plain lucky!But well, we got chocs ;)

And we played the chair moving game which we played in MJ. And I seriously forgot how to! But well, we learnt from our mistakes ba! :)

Iris, Adit, Michy, Nad, Nick and I went to Funan KFC for dinner (yes, fast food again) and chilled out till 7pm when we went to VCH to watch a 6 man Ukraine Acapella group!!! THEY WERE FABULOUS!! I seriously don't mind watching them again!! SUPERB! :))) I shall try to see if they have something online :) When I have the time...

Home LATE again!

15 May 2008 (Thurs)

Another day with Nad!! Michy was sick so she didn't join us...Aww...she missed so much!

We had talks about CFA and Arts as a career (well, I am thinking of it :))). And about the vision, mission, values of the group. We did SWOT! So love what I studied! And got to interact with the other groups. Lunch was great at Charcoal..near Funan. And we realised the common problem among many groups - Lack of guys! WHY!! But I guess choir aint that bad. we still manage to make the numbers with quality singers too :)) Love the present Russia group :)

After the retreat, Nad, Iris and I whoosed down for choir in a taxi. And I was TRYING SO HARD to keep awake. If you realised, we didn't eat dinner. Coz we had loads of FOOD! CFA fed us almost every 2 hours!!

Choir ended really late! About 10pm. And we still had comm meeting. All in all, ended at 11pm. Caught the almost last bus. And the almost last train and got home at 1145pm. Spent 14 hours with Nad today! Watch out..more days to come...

16 May 2008 (Fri)

Went back to school for meeting. Literally whole day...Finally, got to go home for dinner :)

First day I wasn't home so late!! And no fast food dinner.

17 May 2008 (Sat)

Had choir at Siglap and saw MJ juniors :) We had a great practice :) Yay!!

Went to grandparents place and bought icecream for ah kong :) HIS BIRTHDAY!! Happy BIRTHDAY ah kong! :) LOVES!!

And I trimmed my hair :) Not much diff.

Didn't have lunch but ended up eating durians and icecream!

Epoh sent me back and mummy called back saying daddy wants to go out for dinner ;) Soooo, we went to TM's newly opened Swensen's to eat! Photos to come ;) We had a spread!!

Walked around. wanted to watch movie but I didn't bring my specs :((

Home sweet home early :)

18 May 2008 (Sun)

Church in the morning. Totally hated something... I don't understand...

Went grandparent's place and nua-ed there. Mummy cooked dinner. And totally hated something even more...

19 May 2008 (Mon)

OO! Spent 13 hours with Nad today! We have MANY MORE LONG DAYS to come together...

We went to the Russian Embassy today to do the visas! YAY! It's done :) $80 for the visas :( This trip is EXPENSIVE! Spending close to 3k...

Michy drove! It's quite steady :)

Went to Thai Express with Nad, Michy, Yuans and their friend Jasmine for lunch. Enjoyed the company! And then went back to Michy's place to watch Sister Act 2. Suppose to NAP! But well...the show was entertaining.

Nad and I chilled out at Michy's club while the rest of them went to tan and swim. Well, I never knew I could be so opened to certain things. I guess I am learning and trying to leave the shell I have always been in.

Michy's mum sent us for choir :)

Had the shortest choir prac so far! 2 hours only! And it went great :) I found it difficult to adjust to the acoustics of the audi. And it really shows that we all need to really work on our individual voices, and start listening out more. Seriously couldn't hear anyone else besides the people beside me - Nad and Beng.

We ended choir at 7pm and it took us some time before we decided to head to vivo for dinner. 16 of us! No restaurant, dining area could fit us all! So, after walking around, we agreed to meet at the open area outside (rooftop?) after da-baoing our food (which I had BK...again). So it was 16 people chilling out at the rooftop :) Thank goodness it was quite windy and cooling :) Nature rocks!

13 hours with Nad and about 13 hours with michy too! LOL! what a day...

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It's going to be another busy week :)

And I haven't met Weirdz or KXFZ :(((

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ sleep debt is accumulating.

2008-05-11T01:34:00.003+08:00

My exams have ended :)))

What a great way to end year 1 with a great exam :) But that's bad coz many found it easy. So, PRAYING FOR THE BELL CURVE TO BE NICE TO ME!!

I went over to Vivo to meet Xuan, SE, "Jasmine", Huiru and da xiang for dinner :) We at at Hong Kong Restaurant Kim Gary. It was alright but the company was great :) I love hanging out with these guys! After that, the girls went to get our eyebrows trimmed at Sasa. They are having a free makeover and eyebrow trimming at all Sasa outlets! Don't say I didn't share ;) But whether or not you think its good, you have to know that it is free! So don't complain!

We surprised Huiru with Haagen Dahz's icecream + brownie + candle. And a birthday song :) Along with the staff of HD :) And more cam whoring! Pics when xuanie uploads.

Moving back to home was terrible. I had so many things still to pack and Dad was patient enough to help me. We took about an hour to move everything from my room to 1st floor to the boot and then to home. Till now, everything is still in bags on the floor. Terrible...I don't know how I am going to find space for all my things!!

SiaoEr had a terrible time too! She was quite stressed at moving the stuff! Well, this is what happens when you have 10 months of stuff in your room! Next sem, we will not have so many things in our rooms! And moving out will then be easy :))

But I am sure going to miss the girls! The next time we probably meet as a whole group will be in July since we would be travelling at different times. But NEIGHBOURS for 2 sems :)) That's something to look forward to!!

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I was writing letters to Mummy, Ah Ma and Ah Kong, and I realised how much I miss them and how much I miss home!! It's been 4 months of school and I haven't been talking to them much and caring for them. I teared as I wrote the letters... It hurts...

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Happy Mother's Day :)

2008-05-10T09:09:00.002+08:00

Another 6 hours and I AM FREEEEEE!!!

This 2 week long exam has been "great", well in a sense that it wasn't too stressful. And as I post my last post before my exams end, I feel really excited!!

I slept at 2am last night after tossing and turning in bed and trying to keep cool coz the weather was freaking hot!! Thank God, it rained :) And the night became cool and cosy to be tucked up under the quilt. I thought I would be so tired that I would wake up like 9, 10am, but no, I woke up at 730am!! 5.5 hours of sleep, but with some really weird dream...how much have I recharged??

Anyway, I am really excited for the paper! I hope it goes well coz I don't want to end the exams on a really bad note.

Thank all loads for the many encouragements from Wei2 especially who never failed to MSN me each time she sees me online! And to Jie for her continuous encouragement! And of coz zhen who has been there through many major exams with me ;) To MichY, Xuefang and Harris who keep entertaining me while I study outside or in hall! And to my best friend in class - Huifang who keeps trying to keep me awake while I study, and calls me for a few hours the night before the exam to go through test papers with me and all the formulae etc... :)) And to all others who gave me *hugs* online!

Also to my hall mates - LIX, Ame, SE, Huiru, Twin Ethel, Chooi, Pearline, Lishi, Angela, Weelee, Wang Jue, Jiemin, Rach Pang, Andy, Benedict, Yiwen, Prof Tan, Benny, Robin, Daniel Tan, Lean, "Jasmine" for the continuous encouragement coz I finish like REALLY LATE!!! Like at the END of the WHOLE NUS EXAMS!! Yes, still feeling a bit sore, but nvm...

Val, Pius, Weewen for going through this last day with me! Hehe! Even though we didn't study together!

Weirdz, KXFZ :) Thanks all!! Time to make plans soooooon :)))))

My first year as a NUS Bizader will come to a close at 3pm when I put my pen down.

And of course, my second semester of staying in KR comes to a close tonight as I pack and leave...

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ I Will Remember...

2008-05-06T09:38:00.005+08:00

Its 5 days to the end of exams!!

This 2 week exam duration is starting to get a bit dreary and long... But to think of it, how on earth did I survive O levels and A levels?? We had so many other papers to take and now, I only have 5!

My mind has been preoccupied with so many other things rather than studies. I am already beginning to think of what are the things that I am going to do!

1. HAVE TO REAALLY PLAN MAY TO JULY ACTIVITIES!!

I have so many plans that I forgot which day is for what! And considering I have family, friends, choir, hall and other stuff to juggle! Oh man...Good thing is that I don't have to study and I can fully concentrate on the other events!

2. Meet up with EVERYONE ELSE I HAVE SO MISSED IN THE PAST SEMESTER!!

And that Includes KXFZ, WEIRDZ, JCOC, MJChoir Alumni, MJChoir : ) Dawn, JS and the gang, And Nicholas, Marilyn, Mrs Chan And so many others!!

Any others that I have missed out unintentionally, PLEASE TAG!

There are too many things to do already and these have taken top priority, but it comes with so many other responsibilities.

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I spent Sunday slacking (as long as the books weren't seriously touched). Sun afternoon was at home. I ended up sleeping from 2pm to 5pm! And got up to study for a while before MUMMY'S SUMPTUOUS DINNER : ) She made chicken teriyaki and chawanmushi. Mummy is the best!

We sat at the dinner table talking, watching the charity show from 7pm to 10pm! I didn't have the mood to study so Mummy said take a break! And so, slacked for 3 hours again!

Started studying after the show all the way till 1230am when Mummy went to sleep. I thought I could study a while more, but at 1am, I was on the table snoozing. I guess I really need to study with people. I was studying at the dining table and Mummy was nearby watching her show. So that was a bit of company : )

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It's neighbour's last day of exam today and Siaoer completed her's yesterday! Congrats girls!

Our 1st lap of the race of the paper chase is coming to an end and I am grateful to have known you all : )

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It's going to be studying with Huifang today at Biz lib! I HAVE TO FINISH MS TODAY! *Another going to be dead paper* haiz...when am I able to take modules that I like?? These uninteresting to me modules are killing my CAP...

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Paper chase...

2008-05-04T01:21:00.004+08:00

I am waiting for my hair to dry (since neighbour is not around, I don't have the hair dryer) and too tired of studying already. So, I thought I'd put some thoughts down here. And I should be sleeping soon when I need to wake up at 7am!! It's Sunday :) And I miss JCOC. Seriously!

Anyway, Stats paper yesterday was a killer. I died terribly and I just hope I can pass the module. Oh man...I really hope I can. The feeling is worse than my PS module. Argh!

But I felt quite relaxed while doing the paper. Hmm...I have been quite relaxed anyway. This exam didn't put much stress on me. And I think it's coz the papers are all spread out. In one way, I am quite happy that it is :) It doesn't matter if I end late or not - This sem is again. I am ending later than my friends! But I have loads of time to study for the next 2 mods - Econs and Management Science. Can't slack though! I need to get an A for Econs to make up for all the other killer papers.

However, I slacked away the whole of yesterday. Even as my paper ended at 11am, I didn't spend the rest of the day studying! The Fri lunch partners didn't meet yesterday and that meant, last Fri's lunch at Biz - dumplings and mango dessert was the last of our lunch dates this sem. KY! Please get into NUS! Then we can have more lunches! Miss you guys :(

I went lunch with huifang instead! She is so cool and funny! seriously! I am glad for a friend like her in biz! And we are going to take the same specialisation!! I hope we do the same mods tgt next sems again! :) It was a relaxing lunch at biz with fish soup and mango longan dessert! :)

I packed some stuff for dad to bring back. And the afternoon was spent going up and down, chatting with xuanie and andy and siao er, bringing stuff to dad's car and xuanie's car...we probably need a few rounds before we clear everything!! I still have lots to bring home! thanks to xuanie for helping me carry the stuff down ;)

I had a weird feeling in the night...

Woke up at 735am and went bkfast with Huiru! Amazing eh! I managed to wake up!! :)

But after breakfast, I just slacked my morning away, print notes, tried to start studying. But couldn't...

Lunch today was on Siao er :) She cooked maggi mee and added potato with garlic cream soup to it :) YUMMY! Thanks loads Er for lunch :)

And just after lunch, Harris smsed to say meet at 4pm to study. we were suppose to meet for lunch but he wasn't back yet. So I met him at Central Lib and we walked the 3rd and 5th floor looking for a table. But it was still very packed! I don't understand how people can study there! It's just too claustrophobic for me already especially when you can't see outside to the "world" and greenery! I felt too restricted there especially when you just coughed a bit and you feel as though everyone is looking at you.

So we decided to go out to Central Forum where we studied last week. but it was freaking hot! And halfway down the stairs, Harris suggested the Deck (Arts Canteen). we went there and saw people studying at BK! We went up and there was aircon!! But it was just for a while coz they were closing already. About 5+, we decided to migrate coz it was getting too stuffy!

We went downstairs to the back of the drinks stall and found a nice area where it was windy and yet alright, quite a scenery. The other areas had people eating the not-too-bad steamboat and it was quite smoky. We had wanted to eat that for dinner too but when we saw the queue, we waited, until there was no more :( Had dan-dan mian for dinner instead, also from the sichuan stall.

Studying tonight was quite productive :) We studied till 1030pm and went to wait for bus. Met Siaoer and Benedict on the way. They were studying at SOC which has discussion rooms and AIRCON! But I can't study with them...coz they would study till 2,3 am! And I was tired...

Well, i found great studying friends this semester and I feel I have studied more than I would alone. I guess I got to be out and away from my room with those distractions - going online, cleaning the room, reading everything else but my notes etc. Studying outside where you can't do anything else but read your notes, and play with handphone, chat with studying friends now and then.. it's better that way :)

And since Harris and I don't really talk much while we study, we could study for a long period of time before crapping. It was just great having someone studying with you and it was quite relaxing! Erm...maybe coz my exam is on Thurs. hehe! If my paper is tmr then it would probably be another feeling.

But I managed to finish 5 chapters of Econs - half of my syllabus, but that's just reading the notes. I have to finish by Sun night the whole syllabus! If not I can stress out again! Harris finished 4 chapters of his helpsheet which was a good thing instead of leaving it all the way to the night before the exam again (which would be Sun night! since his paper is on Mon).

We got to start studying earlier next year!! And I am so going to pull him out to study. We can't possibly leave all studying till the night before the exam! Our CAP needs to go up!!

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OO! I am going home after church later and mummy is going to cook dinner :) Won't be bringing my Mac back so anything please get my on my phone :) Will be back on MON!

And I am so happy that my bro and I are doing just great! We crapped over sms! Like never before!! :)

~PiNkDeLigHtS~

Yes...there are some things that I shouldn't know. And even if I do, I don't think I can let go. I am still holding on. Why?? I don't understand why!!

2008-05-01T19:02:00.002+08:00

Careless soul!

O! Heed the warning!

For your life,

Will soon be gone.

O! How sad...

To face the judgement!

Unprepared...

To meet thy God...

Stressed.

But there's nothing that I shall fear since facing the judgement day shall be more than any other thing.

Tmr's Stats paper is gone for me.

Just hoping I don't get another D.

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~PiNkdELIghTs~ I am screwing up my uni life.

2008-04-29T17:03:00.003+08:00

I seriously do not like people to ask me what was my answer at the end of the exam. Period.

And I thought I could escape all that just by leaving the exam hall with no friends (besides Huifang. but she doesn't like people to discuss it too). But in every corner I turn, I hear someone discussing the question, whining that they got it wrong and whatever else they did stupidly during the exam. It can't be helped I know. After being in the education system for 20 years and yet still not used to it. I know I used to discuss after the paper and whatever not. But here in Uni, I don't think I like it anymore. It has come to a point that I have no idea who to believe when it comes to answers. I mean, how do you know what answer is right or wrong? maybe maths. But for today's law paper, unless I hear it from the lecturer herself, I don't think I am going to think that I am wrong. And how do you know you are correct and tell me that I am wrong? I don't care if I sound like I know everything coz I know I don't. And I don't care if I am wrong already. It's done. Just will wait for the results which would be another scary thing. Now, who said uni would be easier than A levels??

2nd day of exams and feeling drained.

3 more to go.

on a happier note, I MET ZIWEI!!!! :))

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ i will think i am right.

2008-04-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

I died with Maths.

HORRIBLY.

Thanks to Brenda for giving us a lift :)

2008-04-28T01:37:00.001+08:00

11.5 hours time, I would be starting my first paper!!

GEK1505 Living with Mathematics.

I hope I survive it!

CANNOT S/U!!

No way!

But seriously, I don't feel like I have an exam soon! It's 13 days to the end! :)

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~pInKdeLigHtS~ I WILL SURVIVE!!

2008-04-25T11:47:00.005+08:00

Probably the Central Library isn't such a conducive place after all. And I studied at various places over the week. Probably studying at the same place differs from day to day.

Since Monday, I have not been as productive as that day to finish up 5 webcasts! But that's coz I don't have 5 webcasts to do already :)

Tues was a slack morning after waking up like really late coz of the late night out the night before. Then it was choir meeting at 3pm after which we studied all the way till 2am at CFA.

Wed was bad..I did nothing productive in the morning and knocked out in the evening and studied till 1am. So slack!

But! Yesterday (Thurs) was good! Xuanie dragged me to go for LWM consultation which I think I am quite dead for it. Met KY at Sci bus stop and we headed to Biz for lunch!

The Friday lunch partners met on Thurs this week instead coz there was Beijing dumplings selling only on Thurs at Biz! We ordered 30 pieces of dumplings and the guys said they could eat MORE! Oh my...i thought it was quite a lot already! But guys being guys...We had a bowl of Mango with Nata and Mango with Longan! We were suppose to eat Mango Sago but these guys just didn't have the luck to eat it.

I am so going to miss the Fri lunch partners :) Thanks Ky and Harris for many wonderful Fri lunches :) It's probably going to be our last next fri and I am not looking forward to it at all coz I would have to survive 3 papers before going for Fri lunch. :( How'd I wish there weren't exams.

After lunch, Harris and I went to Central Lib to study. Well, we wanted to study in the lib but it was super packed! The 3rd floor looked as though there was an open book exam going on! People are STUDYING SO HARD! (and what am I doing here...blogging...)

So we decided to go out to the Central Forum and found a nice comfy area. It started to blow cold wind and I was using my jacket even in the open area! It was just like being in the library just that it wasn't so restricted. There were occasional sudden jerks as the bee flew by, freaking us out. And some funny comments by Harris Ang who is so random at times.

I finally tried the steamboat at Arts! It's not really fantastic but well, something different. It's really big portion for a person to have it alone. And even as I shared it with Harris, I felt it was quite filling! Michy joined us :)

Soon after we settled down to study etc...Adyll and Xuefang joined us. I had my one hour of tv today but it wasn't the drama serial. Instead, we watched AI results show. I missed the performance show and they did Andrew Lloyd Webber's songs!! So love his songs!!

I guess I was losing the energy of studying after that...And we talked quite a bit about choirs, (like duh, when Adyll is around!) and about school..and grades.. oh! And birthday! I calculated which day Michy and Harris were born coz it's part of LWM! just that the qns won't be so straightforward. I think Mother Goose's poem isn't really true...

Monday's child is fair of face.
Tuesday's child is full of grace.
Wednesday's child is full of woe.
Thursday's child has far to go.
Friday's child is loving and giving.
Saturday's child works hard for a living,
But the child who is born on the Sabbath Day
Is bonny and blithe and good and gay.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monday's_Child

Mich Y is born on a Mon but yet she aint very fair.
Harris is born on a Sat, but he hasn't been studying!

And am I full of woe??

Ah..it's all but poems.

And Adyll was so inspirational in encouraging us to take honours that I think I should aim for it. And not think that since my grades now can't, I won't be able to. He is an example of making grades Rise! And I want to do honours with neighbour :)

Hope I pull through my exams :(

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Alrights, its 2pm now and I haven't started studying!!

Must finish law today so that I can have a peace of mind for the weekend!

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And here are my studying partners for the week so far :)

From left clockwise: Amelia, Siao Er, Benedict, Lixuan

My greatest buddies in hall :)
Big Hungry and ME :)
I did try to study :)

I did try to make the photos vertical but it can't! No more wasting time, will just upload as it is.

Even when Adyll speaks, he looks like he is conducting! >.<

Harris and his jap boy hair!

Xuefang! If only she knew how to do biz essays or help me take my biz mods!!

Me and Michy : ) we were playing with my phone! hehe!

Tags:
Lizhen: NO LAH! Didn't say your character bad mah! Just saying that for me to get to know you really well (and still not so well), it took me 4 years!! haha :)

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~PinkDeLiGhTs~ JIA YOU!!

2008-04-22T02:11:00.003+08:00

I thought I should conclude the wonderful day with an entry on how WONDERFUL it was :) It's not going to be an A essay (as how I heard some people complaining on how they did so badly for the essays and needed to find out how come its not an A! Maybe i take things too easy going already that a B grade is good too!)

Anyway, so the story starts with meeting xuefang at 10am and realising that the Central Lib was super packed. We settled for the Multimedia Viewing room where the tables were super low, having to bend low to write. It was basically meant to watch videos!

Met Aifung there :) Loves! She helped me take care of my laptop 2 times! And called me back when the MVR was going to close!

Michy came about 1130 and we studied more till 1230 where we went to have lunch (chicken fried rice from lerkthai) and redbull at the deck :)

Back to MVR to study more and I finished watching 5 LWM webcasts! Did a bit of Econs lect but ended up getting confused!

Had MSN chats with SE, Lix, and HF which added laughters to my quiet time at the library.

Harris came at about 6pm when he said he would come at 3pm. Well, OVERSLEPT again!

We went for dinner at the deck (again) where I had a taro turnover and a hot milo!

After which, we went back to pack up and headed for Macs, where I tried SOOOOO HARD to connect to my TV! But to no avail. I didn't get to watch my 9pm show :(( But it was fun studying with Harris, Michy and her neighbour, xiaoxuan :)

We went to Central Forum after that when Macs closed and studied from 1130pm to 130am! I did much LWM and I am beginning to see more light to it now :) Hopefully I would say LWM from now on instead of DWM (Dying with Mathematics). Thanks to harris for TRYING to solve some qns! And you are going to take a module on part of my module this coming exam and you still can't do it! OH MAN! Please start studying!!

It was just hilarious studying with the 3 of them, telling ghost stories, laughing at silly stuff, talking crap. OH! WE DID STUDY! Some relaxation time and I guess it was too late in the night already where we were getting a bit OFF. hehe!

And if you are wondering how i got back to hall, I walked back, with the rest! CF to KR is quite near :)

it's going to be more studying tmr :) But this time should be at CFA. I am going to recuperate and be charged up for more studying tmr (should be later)!

I am finding more studying partners/groups and places :) Whee!! I hope to see more LIGHT to my grades.

Loves!!

oh and I just found out that people can comment on the post by clicking the link "__ people tried to mend this shattered heart" :)

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xf: I gave CL a chance but not the actual studying area! but it was great :) looking forward to other places like CFA and YST :) Thanks for inviting!

Ziwei: I may not be there on Wed leh. See how. I probably go to other libraries :) But i do hope to see you there! How's your exam timetable like? And I hope you are doing well :)

Dianne: Yeap! It was good! maybe a change of place would be good too! finding biz lib a bit not conducive. How's your exams? over?

~PInKdELiGhTs~ Thy word is a lamp unto my feet :) And I shall see more light!